okay so i went to work last night...i didnt really want to, but i did. i was completely tired...and i didnt even get my check. irina is so stupid! im supposed to be going to someones house tonight but i dont know if my dad will take me or not. *sigh* i need to buy a new fishtank thing today....i feel so sad again. i just want to be held...:( i feel ( Read more... )

i dont know what to say. i really should be doing my math homework right now because i did some of it last night and got completely stressed out because i was getting them wrong so i just stopped. eh...its okay though...i always get good grades, one 50 wont kill my grade...its better than a zero. i love talking to jamie through comments :-p....jame ( Read more... )

hey, im going to be all cool and make all of MY entries private too.. ill add anyone who asks that either i like or i dont know. yeah...

todays lesson learned: you should have just fucking said it!

so i got the wwe originals cd. it was exciting. me and TCB celebrated our 2 year yesterday. it was on tuesday but what can you do on a tuesday night? nothing really. so we spent from 9-9 together yesterday. we went to the movies and saw the passions of christ-very emotional movie-, starsky and hutch-funny movie-, and then we saw dirty dancing ( Read more... )

i cant sleep. my left eye keeps fucking up...its watering whenever i try to look at the screen or tv or something and its soo bloodshot! it hurts....im thinking about taking my contact out for the rest of the night...well morining and see if i can get back to sleep. it hurts so fucking bad. *sigh*...bye

todays lesson learned: i need to order more

i stayed after school today in the weight room and TCB stayed with me. it was good. and then we hung out in the auditorium and ate dinner together there. it was a great day with him. then i came home and took a bath and that was relaxing...i listened to some quality joy drop...sometimes when i listen to their songs i cry but today i didnt...not ( Read more... )

had an okay day today. when TCB got home it was the best. but at school i just kept thinking about my dream and how scary it was. *i want to scream, i want to cry just to save myself one last time* it was so scary...ive missed her so much lately. its like i want to be alone but i want her here with me so its no alone, i guess. i keep sneezing. i ( Read more... )

i just woke up...i had a dream about my mom. she was evil..she was trying to hurt me. why did i have that dream? she loved me more than anything. *sigh* i dont understand....im so scared right now, i dont want to go back to sleep....someone help please

todays lesson learned: *sigh*

i feel...completely...apart. today was our 2 year, me and TCB..yeah, it was great til he had to leave. today at school without him was hell...im in my hell right now again...oh my god...i dont know what to say anymore...i just dont know. im done...i am just done. this entry probably wont be long at all, but whatever...*there was a time when i knew ( Read more... )

*i saw you like a summer dream knew the answer to everything that i ever said* so i didnt get much homework done at work. got my math done and some english and im so far behind in management, i may as well just attempt and fail once again to drop the class...i want to go take a bath. just go completely relax. nothing much has happened since ( Read more... )