Sooo school was actually pretty pointless. I'm miserable there. There's absolutely nothing for me. Everyone except like three people are into bad things. More and more people start up every day. Just like more people drop out every day. Some people are just too weak minded to stay off of drugs. Pretty sad when you can do them, want to stop, then ( Read more... )

Soooo today was filled with cleaning and then organizing my photobucket(the new one i made). After that my sister and Evan came and we ate dinner and then Cary came. We laid around and fell asleep on and off the whole time. I loved it. It felt insanely right. I love being in love with him. Everything is just so right. He loves me and treats me ( Read more... )

Alrighty so school was okay. I didn't feel good because I'm female and it just works that way. In first period we had a practice "code red" so we had to lay on the floor and such. I really hate how we do that then go back to normal right after. I've always been afraid that a school shooting would take place at North. I mean look at it. Almost ( Read more... )

Soooooo once again I went to school all happy and such. Before first period I went into the courtyard and hung out with Laz and his girlfriend. Pretty sweet. In first period we did math that I'm actually good at. So I was happy. Very happy. Second period we took notes, played a game, and then looked at slides. So that was alright. Kindof dull but ( Read more... )

Soooooo today was a good day. Went to school and was happy for once. Math was math. After that was homeroom and I bought myself some food and a drink from Mr. Hnatow while informing him that every wednesday I will depend strictly on him to provide my breakfast. lol. In second period we took notes and all that good stuff. Uhm this kid was being ( Read more... )

Alrightyyyy so I had a pretty dern awesome day. Like nothing went wrong. I'm happy, Cary's happy, Ashley's happy etc. Ash has finally found a good guy. Thank god =) Anywayssss saw Cary and we watched Alone in The Dark. It sucked. So cool. All in all I'm happy but somewhere in the distance my depression lay waiting to screw up one of my days. So ( Read more... )

i helped make my night bad. but im just so stressed that everything gets to me. i was pretty much freaking out and wanting to cut so i searched like someone looking for drugs for just something sharp. eventually i had an old razor pressed really hard on my wrist. but, i couldnt bring myself to cut. i dont know why or how i kept myself from it. but ( Read more... )

Alrighty school was school. Every day I have to like force myself to get up and go. I definately despise North. DESPISE. There's nothing special about it. The small things are what keep me there. And I'm talkin small. It's pretty sad. This girl Alicia started her shit again in the cafeteria so we were like cussing each other out and she said she ( Read more... )

Sooooo Friday was spirit day and homecoming. Ash had stayed the night with me on Thursday and a bunch of shit went down. Another one of my friends is in a mental hospital which pretty much sucks. =( Anyways, for spirit day ash and I put paint on our face and made shirts. so that was pretty cool. school was alright near the end of each class the ( Read more... )

Alrighty kids so today my nerves are shot. This black girl at school always harrasses people so I finally said something so for the rest of the day she followed me everywhere. It was really really annoying. I thought I was going to hit her. She came up to me while I was sitting with Brett and he had to keep me chilled cause yeah I would've hit her ( Read more... )