i know how you guys hate it when i do this. but i really don't care. if you hate it THAT much, then just don't add me as a friend. i just can't stay in one place for too long.

new journal: iserameximius.livejournal.com

expect friends only.

this weekend.

trip to baltimore.

party with sanam.

a few breaths of fresh air.

boys and trees.

should be really, really nice.

life pretty much sucks lately ( Read more... )

i can dabble in adventure every now and then, right? don't care if i can or can't. i'm sure as hell going to. and i am NOT going to feel guilty and i am NOT going to put the weight of the world on my shoulders ( Read more... )

last night i had the most terrifying dream. i was caught in a conspiracy, attacked, and when it was finally all over, i fell in love. and when he had me alone, he revealed himself as the killer, trapped me, and i woke up before the worst ( Read more... )

i'm rewarded for my greif ( Read more... )

so... i kinda like him.

which i didn't expect to happen.

and he didn't kiss me goodnight. which kinda makes me like him even a little bit more.

i'm going nuts. i want to get out of here so badly but i don't know where i would go, and i can't for the life of me find my car keys anywhere. and the funny thing is that about a month ago, i lost an entire lanyard with my house keys, car keys, tamagachi and key chains all attached. vanished. gone. somewhere inside my house, i am sure of it, but ( Read more... )

my dad says we have to do something about my drinking. christ. fuck this. fuck every god damn second of it. fuck being alive. i hate every second i'm alive.

i am going to lay in bed today. not move. and wait. for someone to come get me the hell out here. if anyone reads this and wants to get me the hell out of here, i'll be in my bed waiting.

not worth it. so not worth it.

every day get so much worse.