a dear friend of mine told me not too long ago that life needed to quit picking on me.

did the powers that  be hear him??????

i have managed to find an old high school love - - my feelings for him have lasted for over 25 years. ok, i realize that what i feel is based on who we were..... but in talking to him recently,there is still a connection ( Read more... )

seems my life just cant go very long without drama and chaos...... and i am not even the one that causes it ( Read more... )

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If there is anyone left using this site to keep up with me, I have been posting on www.Dailystrength.org under DraconicSoul... come find me there

I cant stand being on this out of control roller coaster of emotions.... Is this natures sick way of trying to teach me to let go of the need to be in control?

I can go from feeling ok to horrible in the blink of an eye - - for no reason at all - - and it fucking sucks

I can see that some of my friends and family are growing tired and feeling ( Read more... )

Enough pain had fallen through the broken cracks of my heart that I was learning to live with the remaining hurt. I had become comfortable in my discomfort. Perhaps there could be an existence for me after all because I no longer felt so alone lost in my own mind.

Then - in a brief moment - my heart was ripped open further. You must have seen me ( Read more... )

I actually had a decent nights sleep last night so I feel a bit better today....

The kids read the article I found for family members of someone depressed. I think it helped them understand better what I am going through

I am looking forward to my 4 day weekend... I took Tuesday off so that we can gather as many kids as wants to go and spend the day ( Read more... )

Main Problems for Friends and Family

Let me start by saying that I, for one, appreciate your wishing to understand someone else's depression. I commend you for taking an interest in a very difficult subject and for wishing to help. In an indirect way, you're a victim of depression too because this illness impinges on everyone around the people who ( Read more... )

Finally starting to feel like myself again..... YEA!

i think the lower dose of the new med is not enough... it was all i could do to force myself out of bed this morning.... even though i am supposed to take the lower dose for a week, i think i am going to start the normal dose tonight.... the most it will do is make me sleep alot - which is what i want to do anyway