Down thirty pounds, but I still look the same when I look in the mirror. I just want to be tiny. I want each step I take to feel light. Every step I take, I feel like an elephant walking down the street. ... Everyone  must be staring at me.. It's pretty easy to see a giant elephant like me... Someday...very soon, I will be skinny. My ultimate goal ( Read more... )

( Test )

 I was doing soooo well. For like, the past week I ate no more than 500 cals per day... but yesterday....I ate so much.. probably around 2500. I can't even look at myself. I feel like such a failure. But I'm starting over again today... 

The choir concert was today. We did amazing. Blegh...I'm PMS-y...so here's what's on my mind:.

I'm only happy when I sing the music... 
The moment I was done, I was sad because I knew what would follow.

My best friend Matt would leave with his 'friend'...His guy friend... Corby...
They are going to be dating soon, I know it...

I can't live like this ( Read more... )

Day one: 400 cals
Day two: 600 cals
Day Three: 310
Day four: 315
...i was doing so well until today:

Total cals: 1380
:( I'm throwing away all of the food in my dorm now :( And later, I'm going down to the gym to work my ass off. it's too bad I'm sickly full of fatty food...because it's so much easier to work out when my stomach is empty :P and my bff ( Read more... )

I am SO not happy. I feel SO stupid. I've been eating this extra light popcorn thinking it was 50 cals per bag..but it's 50 cals per serving! WTF?!!#@@@$ I've had an extra 200 calories for the past 3 days ( Read more... )

Today is a new day. I was working out early this morning, listening to a song... I love working out when I'm angry, or in a bad mood ( Read more... )

I'm shaking ( Read more... )

On the 2468 diet... It's going well so far. Today is my 400. I still have 50 cals left. I'm saving that for after I work out. I'm having popcorn :D ( Read more... )

I did okay today.... I jogged for a half an hour. I ate around 800 cals...but I'm on my period, so I'm already bloated...so I get discouraged...and eat too much... but I don't care because::: School is starting up!! I move in on the 23rd. I can't wait. My roomie and I are working out every morning! I'll be on that treadmill for an hour every day! I ( Read more... )