I'm all doped up on Nyquil, so I'm kinda tired... but before I go to bed, I just feel the need to talk ( Read more... )

I have to start over. Once school starts, this will be so much easier. I feel so disgusting...and my scale is telling me different numbers, so who knows how much I actually weigh. I want to be skinny so badly. I can't fail this time. I can't. I'm going to be around skinny people ALL the time at school, so hopefully this will serve as thinspiration ( Read more... )

Okay, so I know day 9 was yesterday: but here's what I ate

2 mini bagels (110 cals each)
a slice of cheese
half a black bean burger
veggies
...I think that was it..there might be more but I don't remember. well..I'll post for Day 10 later today since that's today! :D

So far I've had less than 400 calories and I am fighting this hunger! I HAVE to be in control of what is going into my body. I want to lose weight so much it hurts. On Day 10 I will weigh myself and write it in this journal. I weigh myself everyday, but I think after every 10 days goes by I'll put it in here, to see my progress.

Today is my 20th b-day! Unfortunately I was taken out for lunch at work today :P I had a little bit of salad and some soup, so not too bad! I'm worried about dinner though. I doubt mom has anything planned.
Day 7 of my diet :D One more week and I KNOW that this will be a lifetime habit. I just have to keep pushing through and take this day by day

Not too much time for this post. I'm SO tired... I went shopping with my best friend :D I spent SO much money. Like...$200 dollars at least! hahah...blegghhhhh....I only ate a small salad, 1/2 a slice of cheese pizza (i picked off as much cheese as a I could), and two bites of dessert pizza (only because he made me.) I tried really hard to eat as ( Read more... )

Well, today just went down the drain. i hadn't eaten anything. I decided to have some dinner (which was a mistake.) I should have just toughened up and said no. But I had a little dinner...310 cals..and then I had a little more..and then I realized that I ruined it, so why bother? ugghh..I've probably had 800 cals today!! :P UUGGGHHHH

So, even though I avoided food as much as possible..I was still a failure. I was doing great until dinner time...Mom made potatoes... I had to sit down with the parents for dinner.... :P ..so I couldn't NOT eat. I ate only 3 small red potatoes and a soy dog with a bun. Total Calories for today: 524 ( Read more... )

I'm SOO Happy! so, mom made pizza. I went into her room with a slice of cheese. and took some tiny nibbles when she was looking (I picked off the cheese..:P)...to not rise suspicions...and then I left...with almost an entire piece and fed it to the dogs. Thank goodness we have them! hahah.. so basically all I had today was half a salad, a few chips ( Read more... )

It's only 3:13pm, but I am already soo proud of myself. Mom and I went to the grocery and I asked for all the same foods I usually do.. No suspicion from that. And we went to lunch before hand. Lucky for me I'm a vegetarian, so I sometimes don't have many options besides a salad! I got a salad with NOTHING on it..no croutons, no cheese.. Just ( Read more... )