Oh my god.. I'm so excited.. I love being happy y'all! Adam.. is.. simply fantastic. if you look a little lower at the "wait for.." thing. He saw that, and asked when I found it.. because every single thing on that *list* fits him. :):):) I had lunch with Sissi today, and she told me that I never once stopped grinning. It's such a good feeling. I ( Read more... )

I am now offically without Ben. that's all.

Wait for the guy who pursues you ( Read more... )

So much for that. we're not broken up.. just "chilling off each other for a while" I don't really know what's goin on.. just that I don't make him happy.. I've tried to make him happy.. but I don't know how. I guess I'm basically single for the time being.. too bad I don't want to date anyone else. I really just don't care anymore... I don't even ( Read more... )

I'm scared of how I feel.

Have you ever cared so much for one person that you'd rather see them happy than be happy yourself ( Read more... )

Ben and I are on a break, officially now, instead of just not seeing or talking to eachother like it's been for the past couple weeks. Hopefully things will work out, but we haven't spoken at all since we barely talked about that. I'm just not happy anymore, and I don't know how to make it better. I guess space is all that can be done now... I hate ( Read more... )

I still don't feel good.. hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow, because there's a 3 hour drive in front of me and Ben.. I hope we'll be closer after this trip- it's been kind of weird this week, he's tired, and we've not really seen eachother like we did during the school year. He works alot more, and I've been a little more down than usual and I ( Read more... )

I keep trying to update this thing, but whatever. Things are good! Ben is good, and everything involving him is great! We're going to Columbus next Friday, I think.. for an aunt's birthday (his family) so I'm meeting the entire jewish side of his family, plus his father- who's methodist! haha yay a methodist! I'll be JUST fine. I'm slightly worried ( Read more... )

... so much has happened too! Went to Norfolk to see Jason.. that was fun. Sadly though, 10 hours is simply too far to keep a relationship healthy. I felt bad when I talked to him, but he said he was thinking the same thing-- hope that was true ( Read more... )