I seriously just feel like I might as well not even exist sometimes.

Huge sigh of relief!!

Thank you, thank you, thank you for all of that last night. You have no idea how much I absolutely needed to hear those things... and you said them all by yourself. You may not know it but I was in tears the whole time because I was so relieved/happy just to hear you say it and know that you really meant it. I love you<3. ( Read more... )

On a lighter note from the last entry, I am getting so excited. As I am slowly collecting baby things the reality of having a little one is hitting me, and I am finding that instead of being completely freaked out, I just can't wait to meet him. The lil turkey is kicking me as I type this. He is always up this time of night it seems. I started to ( Read more... )

I have to admit, the more time passes, the more used to the idea I am getting. That I will have a kid. It terrifies me just as much as it ever did, but I think I am ok with it. I'll be okay with it as long as I can provide the basic necessities and keep it happy ( Read more... )

I'll be upfront at the beginning so you don't have to read this if you don't give a shit or you are too personally touched by the matter at hand, but this is regarding circumcision. It's a passionate rant of sorts, I suppose ( Read more... )

So today my mother tells me that I will not be driven to any doctors appointments unless they are on Fridays. Really now? I tell her, "Jesse just sent me 100 dollars so that I can give you guys money for gas" and she says that my dad just said he would not drive me in except Fridays since now he works from home Fridays and the car is available then ( Read more... )

There is no where safe to divulge the sort of thoughts I am having right now...no where but in my own head. It kind of terrifies me a little bit. Thoughts are only thoughts, and ones like this rarely manifest into anything that actually matters. But it still scares me. It depresses me more that I am so depressed. I've been trying so hard not to be ( Read more... )

I don't know where I am going or where I am going to end up after all of this is said and done. I'm not sure about anything at all right now.

It really sucks going through this alone. I feel more alone right now than I have in a long time.

I'm not sure how I am going to get through this, but I am sure some how I will. That's just life, right?

A BLT has never tasted so good..... mmmmmmm ( Read more... )

I'm pregnant. Took a test literally 3 mins ago. Big fat fucking positive.

I am freaking out. Oh fuckkkkkkme.