I wish I weren't so damn fucked up. I feel completely broken in all the important ways. I was doing so good for a while but I have completely reverted back into my negative state of mind. I feel like it is my own fault people don't understand me when I need them to.

I seem to find a way to taint every good thing that happens to me.

I seem to have nothing but stress. Even when I try to de-stress myself I get more stressed out that I might not be able to actually get de-stressed enough to actually relax, that it completely defeats the purpose. I need to learn to meditate or something. That would seriously benefit me. Getting negative trains of thought out of my head is one of ( Read more... )

I've been attempting to talk with my parents about my health problems in a desperate attempt to try to get some help to see someone about my concerns. After all this...I have completely given up hope on them as even slightly rational people. Seriously. Here is basically how my conversation with my mother went ( Read more... )

SO...I am going to attempt to make it in to the doctors sometime soon. The only problem with this is I have no ride in and it HAS to be on a week day. I am going to have to resort to calling friends and seeing if something is doable. I have to find out how much this is going to cost me also. I am just looking for a consultation and a blood test to ( Read more... )

I just woke up from the most nuts dream I can remember having in a long time! It was like a really intense video game. I remember I could semi control what was happening during it also ( Read more... )

-ingredients-1 large butternut squash, peeled, de-seeded and cubed ( Read more... )

I miss my boyfriend. A lot. I want to hug him so bad it hurts.

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Well...when you have a free hour and a half. But it's pretty amazingly awful and informative. If why America is so fat has ever been a question in your mind, this will pretty much answer that for you.

I hate knowing that there are people out there who don't really like me, but feel like they have to act like they do because we have mutual friends. It's pretty obvious who those people are to me but I'm not naming anyone. That would be rude ( Read more... )

Home-made Vegan-style Asparagus Leek Veggie Soup ( Read more... )