Ever feel like you are running on a treadmill? You are trying so hard... running constantly but not getting anywhere? Yeah... that's me right about now. I'm doing everything in my power I know how to do and trying everything I can think of to not fail. But it just seems like no matter what I do it just isn't working. I'm so tired of getting ( Read more... )

Anxiety still seems to be pretty high. I've been trying to keep busy with my diaper cake stuff as a way to distract from everything. Sometimes at night I feel such an unsettling feeling. I can't even describe it. I feel restless and it's like I can hear and feel everything to a higher degree than usual. It's hard too when I'm usually up past when ( Read more... )

Anxiety... that's been the word of the year for me it seems. I've been so filled with anxiety lately. Mostly over health stuff. Call me a hypocondriac. But these days it just seems like I can find some mega, super serious, life threatening illness as an explaination for just about everything going on with me or my kids. I don't ever remember being ( Read more... )

How can someone be so happy yet, so sad at the same time? So sure yet, so confused?
To many thoughts and feelings running through my brain. And I'm hungry... damn... :(

So, I don't post here much anymore. It seems that much of my posts here tend to be of the "shit sucks" nature... but oh well. It's what I do when I feel like things just aren't going my way. When I feel discouraged it just seems easier to write about stuff than it does to do anything else. Plus, I'm sure everyone around me doesn't want to deal with ( Read more... )

I'm lying in bed... my parents' bed to be exact. We are staying over at my parents house housesitting and dogsitting for them while they are in Brazil. I could go into a huge rant about me not being in Brazil right now. But that would just be me beating a dead horse. So I won't ( Read more... )

Yes... it's been forever. Yes, I'm writing to vent because I don't think I have anywhere else to vent. Yes, this will be a uber long post because it's been forever. Oh well...

I'm trying so hard... maybe I'm just trying too hard :o/...

I’m trying so hard to make things work. I’m trying so hard to contribute in some way to this family unit of ours. I’ ( Read more... )

Been a REALLY long time...
I guess I've just gotten used to putting my thoughts into short blurbs on Facebook and Twitter. Shame on me. Anyway... so to get back into it, I'm posting a funny video of my daughter doing her version of a freestyle. She calls it "The Barbie Song"... I seriously could not stop laughing while she was doing it.

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So I started my own business earlier year as a way of trying to make some extra money on the side.
The business is a diaper cake and creative design business. I do everything from diaper cakes and baby bouquets, to wedding shower cakes, to invites, birth announcment and other graphic design services. I try to keep everything really affordable ( Read more... )

I don’t even know what I feel anymore. I’ve become numb and full of emotion all at the same time. How that is even possible, I don’t know. I’m enraged with fuming anger, filled with drowning sadness and, yet, a numb apathy runs through my veins. I sit here in a daze, unsure of how to make sense of any this that I feel… or don’t feel.

There are ( Read more... )