Ok... so after WAY TOO LONG without being on LJ I am back. Mostly because I needed a forum to write down all the things I've been thinking and dealing with and that have been crushing my spirit with unparalleled stress these days. Whether anyone cares or actually reads or not doesn't even matter to me at this point. Just the very fact of getting it ( Read more... )

Well, here I am again, after being so very far for weeks. It's been I don't know how long since I've posted.
I've actually been going to bed at a more decent hours than I had been in the past. Granted, midnight isn't exactly a decent hour for most people. But considering I was staying up till three and four in the morning because I couldn't sleep ( Read more... )

My first day back to work since having Arianna is tomorrow.... Holy Crap ( Read more... )

Our 401K loan check came in! Woo hoo ( Read more... )

Can someone please explain to me why you can't send a four year old to a free public school with a pre kindergarten program in Texas without having to qualify based on income!? I always thought that once your child was old enough to go to public school (including pre-k) that you just had to register your child. I didn't realize you had to "qualfiy ( Read more... )

Money things have gone from bad to worse over the last couple of days. Pretty much everything we have tried to do to get some money together has fallen through the cracks. =o/ We've got one more trick up our sleeve and if that doesn't work, I'm not sure what we're going to do. I'm just hoping this works because I'm so beyond the point of being ( Read more... )

I feel a little guilty for feeling this way. I feel like I'm supposed to put on this mask of being happy simply because it should be the happiest time of my life. I just had a baby a few months ago. I should be walking on clouds from all the wonderfulness that comes with being a mother. I feel like everyone around me expects me to be happy because ( Read more... )

It's nearly 2am. Mostly posting right now because everyone else, including Arianna, is asleep and I can't seem to sleep. And, of course, I have nothing else to do but sit and watch bad tv all night long and search the internet. I've been here for over an hour researching online ways to reduce credit card debt. Because after taking a much needed ( Read more... )

I love my best friend Jennifer. But she is seriously frustrating me right now ( Read more... )

It's just over two weeks before I have to go back to work. I'm not looking forward to going back. I can feel myself slipping farther and farther into a minor depression over the thought of it. The people, the need to work without proper compensation, the time away from my daughters. Although I know it's a necessity, part of me has the giant urge to ( Read more... )