It's been so long.

Halfway there ( Read more... )

She moved out a couple days ago and it seems to be  helping for some reason but I still have my moments.

Kind of adrift right now. I don't know what I want or what to think and I'm having a hard time concentrating.

God damn I feel lonely. I just want someone to hold right now and all the women I currently know are either not interested in just being friends or they want a relationship (something I am not ready for) I don't want friends with benefits just a friend to cuddle with so I don't feel so fucking lonely ( Read more... )

Things are moving along. She leaves sometime early next week. Sitting here listening to Radiohead and reading Byron is a fantastic cathartic process. I enjoy Lord Byron but find myself cutting apart his poems and sewing them back together. Like a mad scientist delving into the forbidden to create a new body of work that takes on a life of its own:

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Heavens thy fair eyes be ;
Heavens of ever-falling stars ;
'Tis seed-time still with thee,
And stars thou sow'st, whose harvest dares
Promise the earth to countershine
Whatever makes Heaven's forehead fine.

Samson to his Delilah
CRUEL, could not once blinding me suffice ?
When first I look'd on thee, I lost mine eyes.

La Vita Nuova

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I've made mine.

Enjoying the calm before the storm.

Looking forward to what the future holds.

Entombed for four days:

"Rich Lazarus! richer in those gems, thy tears, Than Dives in the robes he wears: He scorns them now, but oh they'll suit full well With the purple he must wear in hell."                              -Richard Crashaw

"I love the way you kiss" 
Gorgeous green eyes framed by a heartshaped face.
Karma.

I'm sitting here listening to Tori Amos, which is a bad idea in my current state of mind, but listening to uplifitng music right now is not an option. Tori does some pretty good covers and I can't describe how perfectly the lyrics to her cover of Depeche Mode's Enjoy ( Read more... )

All I can say is THANK GOD for shooting in raw format. It gives you so much lattitude to work with when adjusting a photo.  I was able to bring all of my Tool photos back from the brink of darkness. You lose a lot of information in the picture when you have to correct the exposure so drastically. So they don't look that great, but it's TOOL so I ( Read more... )

The concert was amazing as expected. Not quite as good as Madison, Wi during the Lateralus tour, but almost ( Read more... )