you went years without me --
you may as well keep on going.
2.13.61


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i was told last night by a good friend who, with some LJ wandering last night found out that ellie, sylntknght passed away from cancer on january 31st at just 35 years old.  it apparently moved fast.  that's what fucking cancer does. her last words about me in an entry on her LJ were horrible. i deserved that.  in tears today i texted ellie's ( Read more... )

i had restless, pins-&-needles limbs and kept shifting in bed and disturbing my husband last night and so i took a bath.  i left my phone in the bedroom so i'd not sneak on social media or play words with friends and i just relaxed.

and began to think about people i've lost in my life.  and here they are:

lynnie: the woman who was the first love of a ( Read more... )

(the actual photos will take a week or so. and since mac's LJ is lame about putting things under a cut, and LJ is too dead for that to matter, here you go -- completely out of order!)


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i started this career in 2004 and this october would've been 10 years at this hospital.  i put in notice 2 weeks ago. now i am self employed full time, writing/rewriting/editing articles for a search engine optimization company.  i'm terrified.

but it's the easiest i've been able to breathe in about 2 years.

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when cleaning off the two massive bookshelves in the back room to my bedroom, i found more pictures, and two more letters (with drawings in them) from kenny. this is very bizzare because his birthday is coming up, and in the last letter i found that i read, it was when he was talking about flying out here just after his birthday/thanksgiving, and ( Read more... )

while cleaning out the back bedroom of our house, which used to be my room, and then became one of my mom's hoarding spots... i found things.  i found a box of letters and pictures from kenny.  the only thing that kept me from crying was that shiloh, shiloh's BFF, and my sister in law's sister were helping dig out and bag up this room.  but later i ( Read more... )

 
..and taking pictures on the internet, jesus.

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so we are all so immature, yet dawn apparently just laid out a threat via LJ, to alicia?  yet you guys are more mature, huh?  pot? kettle? stones? glass houses?