Oh, I haven't thought of this dear journal in quite a logn time, but my therapist said it would be good to check in ( Read more... )

Part of my therapy includes updating my food journal like once a week about my feelings. Ehhh, I'm not really sure what to say this week. I feel like things are moving forward okay. I'm still roughly ten pounds above my lowest weight, but I've recently recommitted to my psychotic eating habits, and that has helped. A lot ( Read more... )

Yikes. Things got pretty bad. It scared me. I got up to +18 from my lowest weight, which was really fucking frightening, but I think I've got a handle on it now. How did I do it? Well...by not wanting to stick to the plan. When I stick to the plan, I do really well. I keep my weight down. It's awesome, how well my body works when I tell it ( Read more... )

I've been traveling for the past 6 weeks - visiting various friends and family, vacationing across this glorious country. And I had big meals, food and damily and drinks, and I indulged like it was my job ( Read more... )

Just another quick update - I am not dead. Again, just taking a break from the journaling. I'm still logging my food, of course ( Read more... )

I'm not dead. I'm actually doing really well. Back on tracking, still doing some good work at therapy. Still losing, albeit slowly but that's okay. I've just started to not like writing in this journal, which is fine, I suppose, so I've been taking a break ( Read more... )

I'm so terrible at tracking on the weekends. I will bring it up at therapy tomorrow ( Read more... )

Fine day today. It feels alright, being back on the pony. Not as bad as I thought it would feel. It helps, being back at my house where there is NOTHING good to eat. I mean that in a positive way ( Read more... )

It feels good to get back to my creepy eating schedule. I took a nap to avoid lunch time, and stacked my caloris at night, as per usual. not the healthiest, but i can't fight the evening hunger, so it really is better this way over nothing ( Read more... )

And, I'm back. I was gone for ages, and I ate too much and put on 10 pounds from Thanksgiving to today. But I;m back to my routine now, and I am going to hop back on the pony and ride it like I know know. Because I do. Talked to my therapist today, she downplayed this as a relapse, which is a good thing and we talked about how I'm just going to ( Read more... )