I hate you so much right now. I know everything now, I know about her, the book, the letters, the song, the picture...everything. I just can't beleive I found out almost 2 years later. what the fuck? You are nothing but a liar. You want people to beleive you are this amazing person, but really you are just scum, and you are worthless. Everything ( Read more... )

it's not going to make any sense. it's not about anyone. it's about everyone. you're probably in here, and you might not be. i'm breaking away once again. i need to get out before it destroys me. there is only so much to take and consume before you run away. i'm at the starting line. ready to run. i don't want to win and i probably won't. i've lost ( Read more... )

Never wait.
A hard lesson learned.
And it's kicking me in the ass now.

I'm sorry.
But I just want to go back.

Maybe it took this "slap in the face" to make me realize how dumb i've been about things.
I just wasted so much time and effort to get nothing in return.
goddamn it.

I havn't done this in awhile...

1. You're a great kid..

2. I can't stop thinking about you and who you used to be.

3. We have so much more to learn about each other.

4. You're turning into that person that I've said I'd always hate.

5. Sometimes you make me feel like we still have a chance, but yet when the oprotunity arises I turn away.

6. Don't go ( Read more... )

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I leave this morning at 11 to go to Maine.
I'm going to go visit Dan at college there.
AND.
Anberlin is playing at his school tonight.
so i'm way excited.
the 5 hour car drive should be worth it.

forehead kisses
sweaty palms
subway
open fields
benches
music
the floor
"ewww"
laughter
driving
tickling
the last night

US.

maybe if i took myself out of that situation I wouldn't feel like this.
i'm so tempted to just walk away and not come back.
but if i did, would you even notice?
i doubt it.
i miss you so much.

Please let this go the way I want it to go.

we both know who exactly i was talking about.
as soon as i spoke you just immeditly turned towards me.
it was one of those things your supposed to keep to yourself yet when put on the spot you just blurt someething out.
gah, it wasn't meant how it sounded.
it may be true but it sounds so much worse than it is.