Lies blind your meek eyes before seen ( Read more... )

In all the years that I have spend analyzing and studying the human nature I have yet to find evidence of why they still exsist. The mental unstability of the mental drive , the unbalanced emotional triggers and fate would make it appear as extinction was right around the corner.. but no.. humans.. are so much like roaches.. we really dont know ( Read more... )

Its a long way down..
its a long way down
with no ropes and no ties
its a long way down
can you feel the wind brush past?
from the long corridors of infinity?
its a long way down
When you have no one to hold you hand.

Strike that last entry about the man. Humans are all the same. I believe I will stay with my own kind from now on. I should have listened to myself in the first place. I have so much love.. after beatings and lacerations.. why? Is that not normal? I will hold onto this until I find someone truly worthy of my fucking care. Alleviate the pain of ( Read more... )

Why does everything feel so empty ( Read more... )

Lost silence in a sliver of hope ( Read more... )

The constant pang of memories plague me like a mist of poison running through my veins. The nightmares are unforgiving in there constant drone of past regrets. Though I am punished for my past I try to look on into the future for what might be in store. True things seem to be looking up for the better , but then why am I still not happy? Why am ( Read more... )

Happy new years to me cause no one else gave a shit. But other then that My life down in va beach is doing ok. I have a Dell job so thats all good.. I still miss Matt to death and not a day goes by that I dont think of his loving face. But many good things they to have died. So I start to create my perfect world.. only this time it will bve ( Read more... )

Well Ive finally taking the dagger out of my heart, but now a new wound bleeds. I realize now that I am self destructive. I build myself up just so I can see myself fall. Tis better be dumb they say? I think not. The beast may live within us all, the child may be there as well, but to understand them both is totally differant. There is a man ( Read more... )

In one perfect fucked up storm ( Read more... )