don't tell people that i raped you
and then try to walk up to my car to say "hi"
like everything is fine.
like i had been returning your calls.
like i hadn't told half the world i never wanted to see you again.
like you ever cared about anything other than yourself.
because everything is not fine
because i am done
and
done is better than fine.

( baby stay clean there's no in between )

i never update.
i know.
you could say things are a mess.
but i'm alive.
i've lost some things, but gained a few too.
all in all i'd say it's been worth it.

in reference to december thirteenth...

"I'll idealize then realize that it's no sacrifice
because the price is paid and there's nothing left to grieve."
-fiona appleand earlier tonight i ( Read more... )

getting drunk smoking american spirit menthols and singing rent with matt carr = the best temporary cure for depression EVER

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today after 11 years of waiting i had my veneers put in and just to prevent any heart failure and/or any other shock related trauma i'm giving you all a fair warning that i, laura elizabeth fishinger, have joined the ranks of hillary duff and mr ed with my HUGE FUCKING HORSE TEETH. fear me. you have been warned.

/end bulletin

i am officially unemployed for the first time in over a year...
and even though given my history i should be used to this concept...
it totally fucking blows.

got a new shrink.
much better.
starting lamictal and therapy for bipolar type 1.