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Being an Inspiration
If you haven’t yet, please read this article about disability from the New York Times entitled “I Don’t Want to be an ‘Inspiration’”Like many people who have visible or disclosed disabilities, I have been told numerous times over the years that I am an “inspiration”. I could tell you about every step of my growing relationship with this phrase and ( Read more... ) -
Dreams, and Why Mom, Why?
Last night's dreams were much better. More feelings of love and happiness, though I can't remember the details ( Read more... ) -
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A few years ago I wrote this in my journal: "Remember Wess, the conservative dude from the East coast? That’s who’s in your bed right now. It’s 4:45am. I can’t sleep, obviously. This is some fine mess I’m in. Painted myself right into a corner, I did ( Read more... ) -
GOT Dreams?
Last night I had a dream I was dating, of all people, Jon Snow from Game of Thrones. The actor Kit Harrington was living as Jon Snow, but in present time. To be honest it has been years since I've remembered any significant segment of a dream; for so long all I have had are bits and pieces. But this morning I found myself wanting to sleep later ( Read more... ) -
Reading a Classic: Fahrenheit 451
“So do you see now why books are hated and feared? They show the pores in the face of life. The comfortable people want only wax moon faces, poreless, hairless, expressionless. We are living in a time when flowers are trying to live on flowers, instead of growing on good rain and black loam. Even fireworks, for all their prettiness, come from ( Read more... ) -
Hello Old Friend
Oh, how I have missed writing. It has been an elusive action for me for over a decade, yet somehow remains vitally important. I do not write, but I would be filled with despair if I could not write. Words are very, well, on point, and many things I've been processing lend themselves better to images and shades of colors, dream-like objects and ( Read more... ) -
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If things go all well and good and smooth, I should be getting a new wheelchair around Christmas. The one I’m using now I’ve had for ten years. Here I am, sitting here, thinking about it, and suddenly I start to cry. Soon I’m going to be out of this chair and into another one, and a picture of my old chair sitting in the back room, empty, just ( Read more... ) -
Today's News: California About to Screw 130,000 People
I receive help through California's In Home Supportive Services program. This pays someone (Chris) to assist me with household chores, errands and stretching. This help enables me to use my energy to go school, doctor's appointments etc ( Read more... ) -
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I've been in a strange place for the past few years. Some days I feel like I'm finally climbing out of the muck, other days I feel closer to suicide than I've ever been. I think my therapy is helping me to not get hyped up in my own dramatics, so now that it's a bit quieter in my brain I'm really starting to see the hard things that do not need ( Read more... ) -
old poetry slam
I got two lovers that worship the ground I walk on, but just don’t turn my crank ( Read more... )