I saw my mom. Told her that I supported her. She's lonely, and worried for her future. So, there ( Read more... )

I’m going through a mental process of examining how my mother’s narcissistic personality shaped me and continues to influence my life today. I am just now learning the extent of what has happened with me. It’s hard for me to write about this, because I am used to not being believed. The abuse I endured was not physical or sexual; I was not ( Read more... )

I keep trying to think of some dumb “Looky, here is what my life is like now”, summer-vacation-report shit. Some boring string of facts that only functions as an update. So here goes ( Read more... )

and here's a link to some really cute pictures to take the edge off the last post.

http://www.abcnews.go.com/Technology/AmazingAnimals/popup?id=3381380&contentIndex=1&start=false&page=1

Tokophobia: fear of pregnancy and/or childbirth. Here are a couple of links ( Read more... )

For some reason I expected it to be so heavy; I had imagined my arms quickly tiring with the load, I imagined myself having to create even more strength in my arms in order to accommodate it. I expected it to feel like lead and have a deep, blue resonance. But when I picked it up it was as light as a feather, as if to say, Our journey may be ( Read more... )

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OMGWTFBBQ, PMS and PTSD! So many noises make me jump these days. It's coming out so much more, and at first I was thinking, am I experiencing more symptoms because I'm believing the hype from my brain, or am I experiencing them more because I am becoming aware that it is no longer Me, but something that happened to me that makes me the way I am ( Read more... )

I’ve been thinking lately about the term “god-fearing”. Actually, it would be more accurate to say that the term has suddenly started opening itself up to me, opening itself to a deeper understanding ( Read more... )

Here's another installment of what happened the day my dad died. For a refresher, here is the last entry about it: http://laurielou862.livejournal.com/73069.html?view=356973#t356973

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