I've been dealing with large amounts of anxiety lately. Most of the time it is "underground", though, due to the medication I am taking. I feel it in my body and in my muscles mostly, not in my head. Some weird things have been happening. Once in a while I find my muscles with suddenly tense and release, like little bursts of energy are ( Read more... )

Hey all,

My computer is broken. I had a really good entry I was about to post, too. Now it's stuck in there.

So, I'm not sure when I'll be posting again. BUT I WILL.

“-ING”. It’s the “-ing” that gets me. “Have-ing” a heart attack, in the background. Forty minutes ago. I called her back. I tore my hat off my head so I could press the phone to my ear. It was quiet in the background. For a second I truly thought everything was going to stay the same ( Read more... )

Ok, I think I can only do this in bits and pieces ( Read more... )

Yesterday one of my aunts asked my mom what attracted her to one of the notorious C's in the first place. She said this ( Read more... )

My father unexpectedly passed away yesterday.

I am made of pain.

And it's not as bad as I thought it would be.

Have lost intarweb. Don't know how much longer I can hold out. SOS! My modem has apparently crapped out - PCTel v.90, windows XP. I've tried so much stuff to fix it I can hardly remember it all. I wonder what I'm going to do. I can only be on the library computer for an hour! Cruel fate ( Read more... )

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This first post is of my family on my maternal grandmother's side. Nothing to do with previous family stories. I redecorated an album my grandmother had, so I had these pictures for a few months. I used my camera to take pictures of the pictures; 15 of them are under the cut (thumbnails).

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The phone rang at 4:45 in the morning, mom said, and you know those calls never turn out well. It was my dad’s brother, Johnny ( Read more... )