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"There is nothing in this world that you can count on. Even that we will wake up is an assumption. But I know for a fact that I loved someone."
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My mother is a puppy
I love my mom but she drives me crazy. Her greatest dream would be for the whole family to live together FOREVER. I have been on basically the same sleep schedule for 4 years and yet she still thinks she can text me at 9pm telling me she's going to be in town the next day, and then start texting me at 8am to say she wants to pick me up at 9:30 and ( Read more... ) -
The mornings
I have been up since 5am. Went to sleep somewhere between 1-2am, and I was so tired. I might be able to drift off now except that there are things going on and I am starting to feel hunger pains. My life has been repeatedly disrupted by medical emergencies (not my own) over the last few weeks and my sleep schedule went off the rails. I finally ( Read more... ) -
you don't know me
Oh, dear diary, I know you aren't exactly as private as the multitude of half-filled notebooks I have been collecting, but you aren't as public as you used to be either, and you're a lot easier to use in bed in the dark. I am scared, really truly terrified, and I feel it is time now to confess something that has been on my mind recently and really ( Read more... ) -
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Is this the meds working? I can still have my feelings hurt, but it is harder to cry about it.
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silence is golden
I live in a world full of so much noise. In the city it was unbearable at times, when sirens and loud engines/stereos, or drunk people outside, wouldn't let up. In the deepest of the wee hours, especially if it was raining, a silence would enchant the city. Not real silence, of course, but it was as if the city was sleeping, and the only sounds ( Read more... ) -
Sleeporexia
One of the interesting things about Wellbutrin is it has a lot of stimulant-esque side effects, even though it isn't technically a stimulant. Increased irritability, aggression, sexual drive, appetite suppression, insomnia... And of course there is my favorite Adderall side effect, "unreasonable happiness" which in this case is the desired result. ( Read more... ) -
Day 1: The day my life changed?
Today, along with my Adderall, I took my first 100mg dose of Wellbutrin SR. I never thought I would reach a point where taking an anti-depressant seemed like a good idea but my life is not bad right now and yet I often feel like it is, like it is too overwhelming to deal with anything and I should just stay in my comfy corner and hide away until it ( Read more... ) -
springing
Today I feel happy and beautiful. The sun is out, though the little room that is becoming my own is a bit like a forest cave or grotto, shady and cool. Lheannon is here and we went out for coffee with the lion, and now we are playing and working and I feel hopeful and like there are good things ahead. I am still overwhelmed sometimes at the ( Read more... ) -
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You know there is something broken when a sexy dance anthem makes you feel like crying.