So I need to be more positive. I need to let the little things go and focus on things that really matter. Making the people I love feel good, having fun, soaking up all of the time we have, all of the time I have ( Read more... )

i have to hold on.  right?
i cant even open up anymore.  the people closest have gone long and far.  funny, in my line of sight but nowhere near to me.
i cannot believe that after all this time....thats all it is is time.  and once we wittle it down to that and decide that time is not love, nor reason to love, what are our reasons for loving?   love ( Read more... )

I wan to rip out my kidneys, I'm so sick of my job...and ridiculous phone calls suck. I am really glad my mom is here now because she understands certain situations. I just wish I didn't feel like shit because gettin out and doing something would be great for me right now. And my throat is demanding ice cream and the closest I could get is ( Read more... )

Everybody needs to quit talking about the OC. Because I used some self control to not watch the entire season, until I get it on DVD. Then it will be increidibly great sex I can have for hours upon hours instead of great sex I only get once a week. Going to watch some of the first two seasons tonight, cause I miss it ( Read more... )

the chilis, the mars volta! yes! Its a ways away but sales only started today and the palace has only got shit seats. had to go with van andel. so excited, right after my bday too!
rhcp new cd is incredible, beyond words.

Friday the 13th. I knew something bad happened, but didn't find out till today ( Read more... )

It starts to slow down and everything is still the same. And you're still; stirring crazily with all these realizations. All these things that used to be. Everything thats fucked just keeps on fucking you. And it means everything to feel different, to be different. But you'll do nothing to change ( Read more... )

So everything has a place. And things are starting to fall. I had an amazing time this weekend. And for the first time I want to keep it all for myself. I don't want to share most of it because I'm the only one who gets excited over the same things, again and again. If you were me, you'd know.

TONIGHT (thursday), at midnight I will be 21. So come to Churchills.

They circumsized my license today. You know what that means! One week till my 21st bitches! Friday the 28th. I think thursday I will be at Churchills countin down like it's new years till midnight, you should probably come and help me get more wasted than I've ever been. Not sure exactly what I'm doing Friday yet...