SO my last week of my summer class at Memphis...my last week of homealoneness before going to visit my family in MI next week...seems like everything has flown by too quickly!! It's been a heartbreaking summer but it definitely did have it's good times. :) SUCH as the trip to Myrtle Beach...in Florida...ha;) and fun times in my crazy trig class. ( Read more... )

So. It's been a rough summer....hell..a rough year. I can't believe that I move out into the dorms in a little over a month. I'm sooo scared but I'm getting a bit excited too. I just hope my roommate and I get along at least enough so we don't go crazy. I'm nervous about my upcoming new life...I'll be officially all grown up. I mean seriously....I' ( Read more... )

Okay so the month of June has sucked. Luckily a new month begins on Saturday...I'm ready to look forward to what's to come now ( Read more... )

So...I thought I was doing better...but then I talked to a man at work who knew Jerry and the waterworks flow once again. It's not an angry cry anymore though...it's a MAN I'm gonna miss him cry. It's sad...but I swear I saw his face in the clouds yesterday ( Read more... )

so..it looks like dormlife for me...unless i decide to go to Michigan afterall. I haven't been able to find enough people to room with me...maybe staying here just wasn't meant to be. The thing is...if I were to move to MI...I would resent my parents so much. I already am so mad at them for putting me in this position. I don't want to live on ( Read more... )

Okay...so the past week has been the hardest week of my life. I know Jerry is in Heaven...his last joke at the cemetery was a testament to that...but I'm still gonna miss him like crazy. He is my hero and his amazing daughter is my SHEro!:) *For those of you who weren't there,
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My heart hurts so badly. I don't know how to get through this. I'm trying to be strong but it's so hard...

I'm so...I don't know...I never though grief could be so painful. I feel like my chest and head are about to pop open and shatter in a million pieces. It's such a physical hurt...one I never felt before. I love Jerry so much and so dearly. He was such an amazing person....I don't understand why this happened...and so sosososo suddenly. Last time I ( Read more... )

so...day one of staying home along while the rest of the family is in Michigan is starting off really....boring. I try to get my mind off of things and just end up getting it back on them that much sooner. I just want to whine about how much life sucks and bad things happen to good people but I know God doesn't work that way. I'm just very sad and ( Read more... )

Okay...so how many times have I said I would update this regularly...? a million? because it seems lately I only write anything when I'm upset. I guess that's what journals are good for though...they're there always but especially when a ventilation shaft is most needed.

By now most if not all of the St. Ann and Search community have heard about ( Read more... )