At work right now. Seriously, what an asshole, that's what I want to say. Honestly, I have like no faith in guys anymore. I mean, honestly, of all of them, I end up with all the assholes, or give my feelings to all the assholes. I mean, obviously, there is something wrong with me, but ah, I'm so frustrated. ASSHOLE. And the sad thing is, because I ( Read more... )

Thank you, thank you so much, thank you very very so much. I have realized my self worth and I will never ever do something so stupid again. Thank you for giving me one more chance, I'm so glad everything is okay. I have awesome news from so many sources, I was concerned about money and my mom said that my grandparents are offering to send over ( Read more... )

Werd. Anyways, going up to Virginia this weekend to visit Kang Woon. He said something about giving me some bad and good news. Maybe it's the fact that he is leaving on the 12th to go back to Korea, or was he too drunk to remember that he told me that already. Everything is well, but honestly, sometimes I think of the conversations that we have and ( Read more... )

My heart hurts everytime I think about it. It's been 1 month and we are still going. For a relationship that I was so fickle about, I'm really surprised that we have been together as long as we have. He is going back to Korea mid-July. You know, when he is around me, he annoys me, but even then, he makes me happy. I'm still not sure whether I want ( Read more... )

I just came back from a weekend with KangWoon in New York. One moment, I want to end things, the next moment, I don't. Honestly, if I really felt right about things, I shouldn't be wavering so much right? I mean, if I erased all the nice things that he does for me, do I still like him? That's the question. No, I wouldn't, or maybe, I would. Some ( Read more... )

I'm so confused right now. It doesn't seem right, at all. Like, what am I doing? Ever since I was little, I was always moving. 5, moving to San Diego, 6, moving to China, 10, moving to Middletown, 12, moving to Marlboro, and now, 19, moving to Virginia. I never had a chance. And now, the purity is gone. Completely. I feel really frantic. I don't ( Read more... )

KangWoon called me last night because he got worried about me. He made breakfast before I left. It was really sweet because I was asleep and when I woke up, he had breakfast all made. I was pretty much asleep during most of our time together because I was so tired. We tried to go see the sunrise together. I think he is coming up to NYC this weekend ( Read more... )

We had our "talk." I told him that I thought we were having communication issues. He was really nervous because he thought we were going to break up. I miss him a lot now. I miss his smiles and laughs and his holding me. I miss everything about him and how he says just the perfect things. I think things will be better after tomorrow, I might go to ( Read more... )

Things with KangWoon (Roy) and I have slowed to a steady dating. Honestly, I don't want to think about the summer and I am not sure how things will work out between us. He probably treats me the best out of everyone I have experienced relationships with. I am keeping this journal from him because I want some space to talk about how I feel. Anyways ( Read more... )

So here is the Roy (Kang Woon) follow up. First of all, we are sort of seeing each other now. But, I have changed my mind about wanting to be together with him. I really don't see him that way, despite what happened... He is a great guy, very true, but our personalities are very different. I'm pretty chatty and really like to communicate and Roy's ( Read more... )