WELL THE WORLD IS WEIRD RIGHT NOW ( Read more... )

Today my grandmother died unexpectedly ( Read more... )

i dont know how the memory of this journal popped into my head tonight, but I spent an hour trying to find it/log into it... and here it is. i have SO MANY THOUGHTS and I am not going to address them all tonight, but i do want to leave you with just a little something...

Clipped wings, I was a broken thing
Had a voice, had a voice but I could not ( Read more... )

"When journeying down the long dark road, we must continue on and never give up faith we'll one day reach our destination - no matter how ugly that road appears before the naked eye."

-Reed Murphy

 "I have come to the frightening conclusion that I am the decisive element. It is my personal approach that creates the climate. It is my daily mood that makes the weather. I possess tremendous power to make life miserable or joyous. I can be a tool of torture or an instrument of inspiration, I can humiliate or humor, hurt or heal. In all ( Read more... )

"but when she's the way she is now-in what she calls a state of longing-when the sweet misery rises in her body and at night she curls on herself tenderly; when all day she looks at every male creature and wonders when one will look back at her and see her the way she wants to be seen; when she cried in the shower for no reason and sometimes even ( Read more... )

it is strange to think this is my life ( Read more... )

 
contentedness feels kind of like this. although I think there is some room for improvement. i can't remember the last time I have felt this happy. its nice. if only every other aspect of my life would round out. everything would be perfect :)

 
i just want to feel like I have control again. I truly don't feel as though I have any bearing on my current life situation. sigh... i certainly hope this portion of my life starts getting better, because to be honest I feel like I am going to be doomed for the rest of my life.

my life feels upside down. as if i am looking into a mirror and I am actually the reflection, while the reflection is living the life i should be. its a strange way to think, but then again my life is a strange series of events that eventually will lead to my break or my mend. i just want life to be simple and i want it to be happy. i want ( Read more... )