oh my sweet ashley, ur right..life is not fair. so many bad things happen to good people and the survivors are left to scream and ask themselves why, begging for answers. ur mother was chosen out of the 6 billion people in the world for a reason..although we may not find out what that is for a while, there was a reason. god needed her to be with him. ur mother was an amazing person, i kno i dont have to tell u that one. she touched all of us. she took care of us like we were her own children and u kno i loved telling her things about ur love life.ill never ever for as long as i live forget the way she screamed ur name when u got in trouble..."ASSSHHHHH!!!"..i loved it so much. ur mother may not be here physically, and i kno thats the hardest thing to get over, but she will ALWAYS be here in our hearts and through our memories. never ever forget all of the good times u had with her. she's watching you..believe it or not..i know she is and i know she will be so proud of you. let me tell u why i think shes watching over us..the day that
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Words Can't Explaindumbstruck85July 6 2004, 20:29:39 UTC
i thought u should know how much ur entry touched me, i think it's the first tear i've shed in a long time, these kinda event in life are the kind that make you not want to live. I'm sorry, can't do justice to the pain you feel.
my dear dear ashley- there are so many things to say at this moment. one, is how incredibly strong you are for even writing that post. I've been meaning to write/ contact you somehow about this but I never really got the chance. Life is..was...and will never be fair. esp to the people who don't deserve grief such as this. Your mom had to be one of the sweetest people ive ever known. She loved you so much Ashley. I remember once after our horrible tennis practice last fall, she told me that they had got you that dodge neon...but it was gonna be a surprise. "BUT DONT TELL HER!! SHE DOESNT KNOOWWW YET!" i thought to myself, [man..if only...] I realize that ur under alot of grief and ur askign yourself...BUT WHY. through time, you'll understand and learn to accept...lots and lots of time. possibly several years. but for now, just re-live the unforgettable, funny, and loving moments in your mind. Having her spirit be present instead of her physical appearance will just have to do for now. i love you very much ash-
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there are so many things to say at this moment. one, is how incredibly strong you are for even writing that post. I've been meaning to write/ contact you somehow about this but I never really got the chance. Life is..was...and will never be fair. esp to the people who don't deserve grief such as this. Your mom had to be one of the sweetest people ive ever known. She loved you so much Ashley. I remember once after our horrible tennis practice last fall, she told me that they had got you that dodge neon...but it was gonna be a surprise. "BUT DONT TELL HER!! SHE DOESNT KNOOWWW YET!" i thought to myself, [man..if only...]
I realize that ur under alot of grief and ur askign yourself...BUT WHY. through time, you'll understand and learn to accept...lots and lots of time. possibly several years. but for now, just re-live the unforgettable, funny, and loving moments in your mind. Having her spirit be present instead of her physical appearance will just have to do for now.
i love you very much ash-
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