Yes, I am a panic-er. It just happens. I get anxious when I sometimes don't know the outcome of something or the view of the other side ( Read more... )

I'm pretty sure Susan is ignoring me. That's just my snap judgment so far, so I hope I'm wrong. Why does everything like this turn out like this?

On paper, I should be quite happy with my life. I have a job that I love to go to. I have friends who will be there for me if need be. I have a family that doesn't dispise me. I should be doin' good. Why is it that people always ask me "Are you alright?" as if to say that I do not LOOK alright? I suppose the answer is that I'm not alright, and I ( Read more... )

I've just finished scanning through the first four years of my LiveJournal. It's kinda odd how I haven't changed that much in terms of thought patterns. I think I am able to handle emotional blows better. I'm almost laughing at my own life before I realize it's my life I think that's funny. I was all over the place back then ( Read more... )

All this silly money I earn is squandered. For example, right now I am debating with myself on whether to buy more Magic cards I probably won't use or this red blazer to go with my red pants that I also won't use much. I'll probably end up buying both, because that's what I do ( Read more... )

I've been incredibly busy with work. I worked nine days straight, with four of those days being lunch-and-dinner situations, meaning I worked 13+ hours each of those days. I nearly lost it a few times during that stretch, but it just makes my days off feel like gold. I do want to say that the sushi bar would have never gotten through that without ( Read more... )

Saturday's date with Susan was more eventful, but perhaps in the negative way ( Read more... )

I went out with Susan again to dinner at Wa, which was about the same as lunch, except I spent a lot more money. It began and ended about the same way, and I really felt awkward about how I was acting. I just didn't feel like myself. I figured that maybe this is a new side of me that I'm discovering. Usually, I blend in to many different groups of ( Read more... )

I joined eHarmony a couple of weeks ago. Yeah, that actually happened. It's probably not as cracked up as it was advertised. It was kind of a domino effect of things happening: I was bored, I passed their test, and the membership was on sale ($75 for three months!). I really haven't talked to anyone from the site yet, but a lot of the women are ( Read more... )

A problem that i have with women is that i choose poorly in mates. It always leads to some sort of catastrophe. I will do the unexpected soon.