I am writing here tonight because, theoretically, this post could be seen by someone, but in all likelihood it will not be. You will see in a moment why I'd rather hide this post ( Read more... )

A draft of an entry I saved, but never finished. I don't feel like finishing it now either, but don't want to forget this, so here it is ( Read more... )

Strange dream last night. I was with Matt in a rather run-down, "bad" neighborhood in Italy (a country I've never visited). It was our last afternoon there. We walked for a while until we reached a nicer part of town, where we crashed some kind of reception (it seemed like a reception for an awards ceremony of sorts). All around us were a variety ( Read more... )

I feel ridiculous writing here after such a long hiatus, or even taking time to write something other than my dissertation. But I crave it. Don't get me wrong-- I enjoy (enjoy's not quite the right word... something deeper than that) my political theory writings. It's just that sometimes I need to let my imagination run free, to let myself say what ( Read more... )

 Now that I've written a tragic post with a potentially uplifting ending (see post below), I'd like to write something more mundane.

I'm really looking forward to this semester. I am only taking two classes: Ancient Greek (which I'm learning because my dissertation will likely be on Plato's dialogues) and Classical Rhetorical Theory (because it ( Read more... )

Yesterday marks one month since the night Matt and I were randomly attacked in an attempted robbery while smoking a cigarette outside my apartment. Since then, I've been more cautious when I've gone outside to smoke. Now I no longer want any reason to be outside that late. You see, tonight I went out back where I have never seen anybody walking. No ( Read more... )

I should either be in bed or working on a paper that I have to present in a few weeks, but instead I'm getting this urge to write non-academically out of my system ( Read more... )

I don't know if it's this damn cold, but I feel empty-headed and restless tonight. It's late and I should probably just go to sleep. That's the best way to cure boredom. But I know I can't sleep now. I've been sleeping on and off all day (damn cold ( Read more... )

What the hell is wrong with me? I was so exhausted all day because I only slept for 4 hours (a very unrestful sleep at that), and my brain has felt awful all day, making me extremely irritable and unable to cope with stress. And yet, I've been lying in bed for almost 2 hours and can't fall asleep! I even took a dose of cold medication which is ( Read more... )

Ok, it's time to face it: I feel like I'm being run over by a train of semi-trucks barrelling down the interstate. Or like how I felt when I went skydiving: like I couldn't breathe ( Read more... )