today i made a list of movies i have never seen but want to see. here are some, it was pretty long ( Read more... )

i didn't expect that.
i didn't expect that either, but i guess i'm over that by now.
i don't want it.
not that.
i want that, though.

in a ridiculous way, it feels good t finally journal about that.

well, well ( Read more... )

sometimes i get really scared of moments. not awkward moments. but i have these moments where i just freak out inside. and wherever i am, and or whoever i'm with, i just want to leave. i want to run to my car and sit there until i can calm down. sounds weird right? i don't know if you could tell when it happens. it happens a lot though. i usually ( Read more... )

so, i love the first season of dawson's creek. it's the best season. everyone else thinks it's dumb. but i like it. one thing that i've always loved about it, is how all conversations, every confrontation, is in person. nothing is over email, or text, or phone. granted, texting probably didn't exsist back in the first days of dawson's creek. if you ( Read more... )

i have no idea where to begin.
my head is so full of thoughts.

the movie "how to deal" does not actually teach you "how to deal". i've been aware of this for a long time. but i was thinking a minute ago that i need to just deal with it. then i thought of the movie, and how it doesn't actually instruct us to get over things. so how does one "get over" something (or someone ( Read more... )

i'm actually a good problem solver.

not so much with my own problems.

but still... let me help you!

last night i wrote a list of 19ish things i wanna do/change. they all seemed rather random but weirdly important. one of them was "don't call yourself crazy anymore". i don't really even remember writing that. i do call myself crazy a lot. i don't think it's to cut myself down or anything, it's just my way of excusing myself when i'm having to work ( Read more... )

this is probably, no i'm quite sure, this is in fact one of the most difficult times of my life. all in all. a few months ago i prayed that i would never be content, i don't want to get lazy and stop setting more goals. it seems to be strongly working. for the good and bad. i got a guitar! my own guitar. it's absolutely nothing special. i'm gonna ( Read more... )