well im at my hero's hizzy (sal) haha and shes still sleepy sleep so im just trying to prevent doing what i did to her last time when i tried to woke her up..lmao now THAT was funny!

ahh man-o-man i hate it when this happens. i feel so helpless in too many different ways as it is, but now this is a way too..i really dont think im strong enough to ( Read more... )

im not too happy with how my feelings are these days. well, actually, its just since friday. i dont know why, but every now and then, i miss him. i hate it when i have these days- because it kills me. i feel very helpless. im definately not planning on anything happening, and nothing ever does, but you never know. but anyways, i just want to be ( Read more... )

well durr..now i know why i didnt know how you feel..because you dont! i mean you do feel, but not how i meant..gooooood god someone needs to shoot me in the head..well maybe not shoot but slap me or something! haha.

haha i got my first check yesterday :) well actually i got two of them because i didnt know i got hired the week we got paid lol. ( Read more... )

torn by natalie imbruglia really represents how i feel right now. i cant even describe how it does, but it does soo much. its like i wrote the song myself. i love it whenever i can relate to a song. it lets me know that im not the only one who's felt this way, and probably wont be the last one either.

im begining to get used to feeling this lonely ( Read more... )

i was just kidding- i dont want anyone to die! and i dont hate anyone either. and when i say anyone, i mean anyone.

some thank yous i forgot to say need to be said..

sal-thank you soo much for helping me as much as you did with this hole..'thing'. you know what im talking about. anyways, thank you...i owe you biig time.

tana-thank you for making me ( Read more... )

i hate putting things i write in here because i almost always see it in someone elses info. and i dont know, i guess some people would be flattered that ppl are putting things they write in their info, but im not. i suppose its mostly my fault, because if they're that personal to me, maybe i shouldnt put them in here. but then again, i thought that ( Read more... )

im sorry you cant see past my mistakes.

im tired of being happy at school and with my friends and then as soon as im alone, i become this depressed lonesome person who hates herself. and i hate that. i hate feeling like im pretending or something because im not..i just feel differently when im alone than when i do when im by my friends or other ( Read more... )

ive come to the conclusion that i hate myself. i hate the way i look, the way i treat other people, the way i care about everything i shouldnt care about, the way i complain about everything yet i do nothing..everything there is to hate, i hate it.

im done.

i thought parents, especially moms, were supposed to tell you youre beautiful and be extra nice to you when youre sick..if thats true, than why did mine tell me i look like shit?

i wish i had someone who would call me crying saying how scared they were that they almost lost me and they never want to. youre lucky you do..

i wont be a bother to you ( Read more... )

i have to say thank you to tanya. we talked today and something she said really kinda opened my eyes. so thank you girl, i love you!! :)

i realized today that i do have a problem with boys-i have the guiltiest conscience. i feel bad for flirting with other guys because of the ones i have hurt, and maybe im just too scared to start a new ( Read more... )