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Jun 05, 2013 10:22

I know it's been, heck, years, since I posted here, but I'm having a low-grade freak-out and need to vent ( Read more... )

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dusty_chenille June 5 2013, 16:59:45 UTC
Vent away - I wish I could help, but I can always listen.

I am sad to hear this news, I know you love where you live and it becomes apart of you when you live somewhere for that long. Can your landlord be reasoned with simply to extend the time frame you have to leave? Could he write you a letter of reference?

If you ever decide you want to relocate to Richmond VA, you have a friend who'd show you around.

I hope you find the space and time to write your novels and have the peace you seek.

Please, please keep venting/keep us updated.

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lewbasnight June 6 2013, 00:48:41 UTC
I am going to take the place I just looked at, even though the neighborhood is shady. (see http://lewbasnight.tumblr.com/post/52250064382/the-best-prospect) It's got a massive kitchen, a yard and a firepit, and an east-facing porch for year-round coffee and cigarette sunrises. I am having an adventure, like the Goonies ( ... )

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lewbasnight June 6 2013, 00:53:41 UTC
Well I hope to stay on the north side, not too far from the bar (aka the Venus Flytrap) and Lakeview where my dogs are. I just looked at a place in west Humboldt that seems perfect: right price ($750, $100 less than I pay now), two big bedrooms, excellent kitchen, but in a mildly sketchy neighborhood. I'm still open to looking at other places, but the sooner I can get a lease in my hand the sooner I can stop having panic attacks.

You know, I still am OK with Dougie Fresh. He's not Hugo, mainly. And he's honest. He's never fed me a line of bullshit, although booting me to give the place to his daughter is kind of a dick move. He's sworn up and down to give me a top-notch reference, and return my deposit (the existence of which is actually questionable...) I'm not going to fight him for more time, because I don't want to blow those two things, but I think I can force a couple of extra days to move, since, you know, 30 days notice for 10 years worth of books, printing equipment and dirty laundry.

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ltmurnau June 5 2013, 23:24:04 UTC
Hum ( ... )

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lewbasnight June 6 2013, 01:04:53 UTC
I'm not offended at all; I'm grateful for the advice. I think you're right about seeing this as a new opportunity to explore a new part of my life. The problem is that I tend to get down on myself in the best of times, and this is coming after a bad romantic misadventure that cut my legs out from under me. I know logically that this can be a good thing; like they say about Hecate: "She doesn't always grant you what you asked for, but she'll always give you what you need, whether you want it or not." I have no desire to eternally live in my 20's-- rotten with confusion and pressures to do something-- I'm happy to have earned some wisdom by now, and I know, once I've nailed down something, a moderately stable ice flow to jump to, I'll be able to look forward and stop wallowing in despair ( ... )

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ltmurnau June 6 2013, 02:52:30 UTC
Oh yeah, having a kid and taking it seriously really helps sort things out for you!
I qualified "taking it seriously" because every day we read about or see people who have made kids but shouldn't have been allowed goldfish.
I was dubious about getting married and being a dad because it meant the end of me being responsible for just me... not the loss of freedom so many overgrown boys moan about, but that if I screwed up, other people depended on me and would also pay the price.
I developed this attitude when I was in the Army, where the principle is often made abundantly clear.
My son is 18 now and has his challenges, but by and large he has become an interesting person who always surprises me.
I am committed to doing a good job with him, I always was, and I want to see him on his way safely and well.

I hope things will get sorted out for you without delay.

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surlygrl June 6 2013, 03:42:44 UTC
Bummer, man.

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jettison June 6 2013, 16:26:09 UTC
Woof. I've been helping a friend look lately for about the same setup (live alone, less than $800) and it has been rough. Let me or D know if you need a hand, stranger!

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lewbasnight June 7 2013, 01:04:30 UTC
I found a couple places that might fit that bill, I'll email you the numbers if you like. All the good ones I've seen I got the same way you find a good job: ask all your friends, walk around and look for signs. Classifieds and Craigslist are picked over and a lot of people don't bother posting apartments there.

And if I get this new place, I'll have a fire pit and a yard and junk! You guys are up by Logan yeah? I'll be in west Humboldt. Kick it all summer long!

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