That's a little better

[lewbasnight]

So I've been having a lot of trouble the last couple days. I'm fighting, I really am, but I'm losing. I can't get around it, I can't get on top of it, I can't beat it, it's dragging me down into the deep dark trenches of silent pressure and black stillness

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[dusty_chenille]

I get so sad about bookstores a record stores. It hurts me so. Talking about writing, talking about music... Those are things I love, too. I've be we been able to figure out how to make my living on things that make me happy. I keep trying to know how. If I learn I will teach you.

Sorry about your struggles with the feelings the last few days. Keep fighting! You are one of my favorite people, even if we are only Internet people. You are one of the good ones. I'm glad you are here.

[lewbasnight]

Thank you! I appreciate that. I hate going to the internet for comfort but I've been so dedicated at isolating myself in real life everything just stews and murks up my mind that I need to blow off once in a while, and I know that you and the other LJers aren't likely to give me any of those "just cheer up! Find a fun activity" platitudes.

[dusty_chenille]

Oh and also: maybe you could do tutoring for essay writing or something to help students? And, have you ever considered going back to school or even taking a class for fun? Check out Coursera for online classes... They are free. No credit, but could be a good outlet.

[lewbasnight]

I wouldn't mind tutoring, but I don't really have any credentials. And I was applying for one of the city colleges here, but I simply can't hack the academic life. I don't have the necessary skills. Plus I failed the math test, so I'd have to take a bunch of math classes before I could take credit courses, and the loans won't cover non-credit classes.

[jettison]

Hi let's hang out. People get paid to talk about nothing all the time. I guess you just gotta do it for free for long enough for someone to pay you pennies per word these days.

[lewbasnight]

I am down for hang-outs. You should check out my wicked boss new porch and yard.

[tdaschel]

Helen De Witte,

as we have (i think) .. congenial aesthetic, details please !

.. but, yeah, we are each activated by something or other / that's what we must go with / it is trooly a matter of mental-physical-spiritual health.

[aunogoshu]

And now I feel good It takes only a second for me to open up that huge trunk inside me filled wit