I am 18 years old now. I am single. I still have alot of the same issues that I had when I first started writing this. I still tell myself that all I have is myself. I still fuck things up but now I know why I do. I am selfesh. If I dont get what I want I freak out. So lately I have been working on that. I am trying to make myself complete instead ( Read more... )

I am still with Nell. We have been doing good. Both of us have our separate problems, and try to help one another. I have to find a job in a week for my co-op class. And hopefully I'll be getting my drivers licenes this saturday. From there I can walk to Brooks Middle School, and drive home, or to work depending on the time I start work ( Read more... )

Well hello. So right now I am on summer brake. Dana and I are just friends. She's sad about it, but what does she expect. I didn't want it to end, but I'm the one who stopped it...I couldn't go on with the bull shit she put me through. I meant someone while Dana and I were having problems. She supported me, and we started to like one another. Weird ( Read more... )

I'm in my last period class right now. Every one is taking a test and since I was gone for the part their testing on I don't have to take it. Today has been good..I just wish I had some bud to smoke after school. Today during lunch, Katrina (Old friend, stopped talkin)was sitting at my lunch table with Jessica (her sister). We sat and laughed about ( Read more... )

It's 2:24 in the morning. I am kind of drunk. I had some money and I found some one at the last moment that could get it for me. I'm also kind of high, because some one was so kind to let me keep there weed for free. But shit's not all great. I'm having problems with this chick who was my friend. And I keep thinking about someone who I haven't hung ( Read more... )

Gary Jules "Mad World"..Good song. I'm so bored right now. It 9:00pm..I have school in the damn morning. I don't know what to write. shits alright. Could be better. It'll all get better. Then bad, then worse...then good again. So why stress over this? I guess I'll go to bed. Good night.

"I was waiting for a cross-town train in the London underground when it struck me ( Read more... )

I'm not tired..there's nothing to do. So I'll write. I'm going home in a few days. Dana and I are friends again..she was the one that I got in a fight with in school. I was going to go home and buy a dime to smoke with her, but my dad is saying I might have to pay for my train ride home. Oh well. My birthday is coming.. How exciting. Hmmmm I wonder ( Read more... )

Today was a long day. I stayed up all night and still haven't fallin asleep yet. Right now I'm here with my brother Dylan. My dad and Milly are out on a date. I don't even know if I would have been able to fall asleep even if Dylan wasn't here. I am tired..I think. But I feel like I could stay up all night again. Damn..I donno whats going on above ( Read more... )

About 15 mins ago I went for a walk. I was listening to a song I haven't heard in a while, and I started to think. Earlier my friend told me that some one that I use to be friends with hates me. Thats nice to know.. I don't know if I'll pass my classes. Shawn is so different. He came here earlier, and is now sleeping on the couch behind me. I'm ( Read more... )