"I'm trapped in this world lonely and fading, heart broke and waiting for you to come. We are stuck in this world that's not meant for me....for me."

-QueenOfTheDamn-

I got so much time right now. I am at my dad's house because I got into a fight at school with an old friend and got suspended for ten days. I'm thinking about getting a job when I get back home. I mean it will suck going to school then Walking to work and getting home late, and having that possibility of not getting home work done..then grades ( Read more... )

If the one they say is holly saves me I will live in happiness, not just in my life, but also in my after life. I have to believe in something I can not see in order to be saved. I have to walk in faith, not in sight. But even if I try..I am sin. Supposedly loving the same sex is wrong. And if that is true I am already going to hell. I smoke every ( Read more... )

It's 8:23am..I haven't fallin asleep yet. I usually do this when I'm at my dad's house. And that's where I'm at. It's Christmas morning..heh I just realized that. Every thing has been okay lately. Boring, but okay. I think I'm ..to blah to type.. Merry Christmas and happy new year. Love

I'm tired of saying the same shit over and over again in my head. I don't act upon the things I tell myself to do. I fuck up every time. Every chance I get..I fuck it up. I can't tell if I need to stop having relationships, or if I just need to find the right one who will eccept the way I am. I know that Right now I am going to stop trying with ( Read more... )

Last night I spent the night at Dana's. I don't think she wanted me to. It was 12:00am and it was snowing out..she kept telling me to leave..I asked her if I could just please pass out on the couch..she finally said yes. I felt bad..but I wasn't going to walk home with no jacket. We'll I'm still here. Benjie and Dana are watching A movie. When Dana ( Read more... )

Well..It's almost 5:00am. I have to get up in 6 hours to go take the 2 hour and a half long train ride home. I don't wanna sleep even though I need to. I think I might be getting drunk today! Hell yea ( Read more... )

Poetry is your salvation. You see beauty where
others see ugliness. Frighteningly intelligent,
people don't understand how you think. Just
like a beautiful rhythmic poem. Mysterious and
dark. You know the meaning of life you just
simply don't care. ~~Just me and my thoughts~~

This morning..around 3:30 am things here were crazy. I got off the computer to try and sleep..But when I layed down I couldn't fall asleep. I was to0 worried about my dad. So I got up and went to his room..He was putting on his coat(about to leave). I said,"Were are you going?" He said "I don't know." I asked him to stay strong..not just for his ( Read more... )

"I'v been changing but you'll never see me...No more holding it in. Even when I use to pretend. But nothing ever goes away; it should. No more sitting in this place hoping you might see in my way. Cause I don't think you ever understood that what I'm looking for are the answers to why these questions never go away ( Read more... )