well well well.. my summer has been splended! I've sepnt Lots of time with my wonderful friends and have just enjoyed life. Everything turned out as planned. I'm single, and happy! lol. Well schools starting on Monday. I'm pretty much ready, well as ready as im going to get.. I'm going to spend most of my time keeping my grades up and being ( Read more... )

ok so life is like 04273526865293652x's better than that last entry, wow how deressing lol, ok so i have wonderful friends that i love and that love me, im getting along pretty well with my family, im partying my ass off, im back in churhc, or well choir, im out of band, and im having the time of my life! and yeah so i thought id tell yall the new ( Read more... )

i havent wrote in this thing for a long time, im not sure if thats a good thing or a bad thing. ive decided that i have changed, ive changed alot, i no longer put on a act, i no longer fact to be something im not. ive decided that i will nolonger be attending church, im not welcome there, i dont belong there, and i deffently do not fit in with ( Read more... )

if you woke up this morning and i was no longer here, what would u do? would u care? would would u notice? would you miss me?

l feel so lonely, i dont know why. i could be at a huge party with a room full of people and i will feel like im am the only one there. i hate this feeling. my life seems so cold, so lonely, so worthless. it's strange becasue i dont enjoy anything i use to enjoy, i hate pretty much all holidays, and just everything i use to love. i do not ( Read more... )

life is weird and awkward.

one of my really good friends told me he liked me and bought me a huge bouquet of roses!

the thing that sucks is that i like things the way they were, i dont want to date him, i like being friends, just friends! i feel sooo bad, and i dont know what to tell him, any advice?

yesterday was CRAZY, way tooo much to type!

today was my brothers furnial, and i didnt go. i didnt feel like seeing my father and the rest of my so called family. my mother and brother went though and said my father wants to see em again, he said he wants to start over, i think it is to late. ive been super depressed today and i feel lifeless. i think im failing all my classes, i never get ( Read more... )

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Today i visited Dr. Suich and that was interesting, i'm not sure how that is going to turn out, hopefully good, and maybe i can be normal. he gave me homework ;/ but whatever. it was really weird though because i cant really talk to people i dont really know and there were alot of really long aquard silences and i think he expected me to say stuff ( Read more... )

i really do suck at life. all my friends are leaving, everyone is giving up on me, and worst of all ive given up on myslef. ive lost all hope. you say i changed, well what if i have. i judt dont care anymore. and im tired of being fake, pretending im something im not. i dont think any of this makes any since but when does it? shit i give up.