life feels like shit even though i should be really excited. i just went through all my emails anf found one on the signs of love. it all points to me and spooner but i know it's not true. even my mum thinks he likes me. when my mum rang him she told him to put me straight. we got it together again last week but now it feels like nothing ever ( Read more... )

being forced to see the college counciller soon. what fun. *sarcasm* lol. happy haloween peeps.gonna be bored tonite everyones going out. not much to talk about. xxx

today has been really good. died my hair red yesterday. i think it looks good but... lol anyway had a good time except i forgot most of my homework but still. tonite should be good seeing mike. got with spooner again last nite still confused ( Read more... )

Yesterday went better than expected. my family were upset but i think they expected it. ben was really good but spooner still wants to smash him. i hope so. as much as i love my brother i also hate him for everything hes done to me. he needs to learn. i dont think my nan will fight the residence order. in the next 6 months i could have my own flat ( Read more... )

Tonit we are going home to confront my nan and tell her im moving out wit my mum and going to court over the residence order. the last 5 days have been good with my mum. the only thing im looking forward to is seeing spooner. im shitting myself. my mum has rung him everyday this week and told him we need to talk about our relationship. good god. ( Read more... )

shit. i think iv finally sorted things out. my brother is a prick. i went to my mums this week cos i didnt want to go on holiday with my nan & co. i broke down in front of my mum and now were trying to get a pl;ace together. i really hope it works out. and i miss spooner so much. my mum thinks he likes me. i know he doesnt though. sigh.

My brother is a dickhead. i now cannot lock my door because he kicked it down. he wouldnt leave me alone for 2 hours. my nan ended up ringing spooner for help! he's a cunt. i hate him so much. i smashed a bottle of toner on his head as well. yay go me. i only hurt myself cos of my brother and he knows it and makes it

Bloody Vampires!! had a blood test this morning. blatently goona get clocked because of the weed. But still. feel like crap today. not good. had a massive argument with my brother. hurt myself cos of it. PRICK. went out with doug and got with him. i dont know why that keeps happening. need to sort that one out. any suggestions?

have started doing this diary thingy. Today is writ on everything day. looking forward to thursday. " take as many drugs as possible day" lol

OMG had the best weekend eva. got stoned thursday at college, friday at college, saturday at work and at rayleigh, sunday stoned in rayleigh. this morning my brother nicked my weed. *the cunt grrr* i hat him soo much. sooo in love wit spooner it hurts.