it sucks not believing in santa. the holiday just isn't as exciting anymore. its xmas night and i am angry, irritated and bored out of my skull. ryan came over tonight after dinner and jamie b. i am just so stressed and irritated for no apparent reason...well sorta. i just want to be alone, do you ever get like that? and no one leaves you alone... ( Read more... )

so i havent written in this thing for ages but im in writing workshop which has to be the most boringest class ever so i figured id write a little diddy. uhh well i got accepted into saint joseph college with a $5,500 scholarship thats kind of exciting i suppose. and i basically gave up my dreams of going to quinnipiac due to the fact they will not ( Read more... )

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i just ordered tickets to see gavin degraw with ryan. its going to be great! i love gavin degraw. he's seems to be so upbeat and happy and i heard some live wavs and he sounds good so im excited. since i can't see josh kelley this is second best i suppose. august 14th. welp im off to the gym.

done with school until next year! HELL YEAH. heh. im so happy. its such a relief. tomorrow i leave for the bahamas with my ma, sister and jamie b. i cannot wait. it'll be so much fun. we're staying at the atlantis. its suppose to be gorgeous. i need this break from work and school so much. im excited but sad at the same time. im going to miss ryry ( Read more... )

today is my last full day of school until next year and it feels great. except the fact some stupid girl is in front of me gossipying about her love life and how she doesnt know if she can commit to her boyfriend over the summer...i hate that. ahh shut up. heh. stupid hoes who can't commit..such BS! but anyhow i had my math exam and it was easy as ( Read more... )

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i feel like curling up in some nice just outta the dryer sheets and sleeping for a few days. i have a damn cold thing going on and its not pleasant. my medicine makes me sleepy and groggy. i wish it was still yesterday night so i could hug ryan. hugs are the greatest and he gives the best hugs. hes always warm. its one of the best feelings. its ( Read more... )

hope for a snow day tomorrow. a three day weekend would be great. and sleeping in. yes.

yep so everything is still at a standstill. i cant talk to her to resolve anything because if i do it could be harming her. and that sucks because for the past week and a half ive been waiting for an oportune moment, but there isnt any. she found out whats wrong with her heart yesterday but she wont tell me. and my father came back and asked what ( Read more... )