being in school right now feels like a twilight i can feel a burn in my heart. and my stomach is in a rare state. it doesnt hurt but it feels, different. i dont think ive ever felt this feeling before. i feel useless and dissappointed. and i feel like ive disappointed other people. i feel like walking out of school, forgetting work and taking a ( Read more... )

yep, im in amusing study hall. i did my algebra and english last period so now i hope i get no hmwk in APS or Chem then i can just relax tonight. yay. so we had to put jake down on friday. it was horrible. it was like loosing a brother. he's been with me since i was 6 years old. i felt ridiculous but i just dont think some people understand how ( Read more... )

i feel so...bad right now. i have something going on whether its the flu, strep or the mono comin back. i woke up this morning and saw white stuff on my tonsils and thats what happened when i started to get mono. i hope it is just a little cold. i have a fever, congestion, hot and cold flashes, sore neck and swollen tonsils. i swear half my life i ( Read more... )

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i wish i could go home and curl up on the couch with some hot chocolate and just relax and not worry about work or school or xmas break..just think about nothing at all. i feel mentally drained. last night after the staff meeting at work which was a dreadful hour and a half, i went home and worked on a vietnam project for mr a. it turned out rather ( Read more... )

i feel like ive been severed at the hips. i feel so crappy. i have to be meeting some friends at rossinis soon for pizza for my bday and i dont even feel up to it. im tired, miserable, and...not happy. the more people talk to me they make me feel dumber and feel like ive done all the wrong. or i shouldnt have feelings. that i shouldnt take anything ( Read more... )

i hate chemistry. i just made up a lab i missed while i was absent all last week. that had to be the worst week of my life. between two trips to the hospital, all that throwing up, and the blood..and just EW! but im better now. i just have some make up work. and it was hard adapting back to school again and work. but works improved. i love it ( Read more... )

back to school. and now i work at a daycare everyday. its crazy. everyday is scheduled. and i know what im in for. i highly despise it. i liked spontaneous days. with surprises and other options besides...wake up at 630 go to school...go from school to work...go home..do hmwk..shower. sleep. and do it all over again until the weekend. leaves no ( Read more... )

my chest feels so heavy. i hate when that happens.

i left the 15th to rhode island. on the RIMS private club property. my family and i spent 9 days there i just got back yesterday. usually long weeks at the beach are horrible. BUT this time it was rather pleasant. very relaxing. i saw nick which was nice i havent seen him forever. actually since last summer. we had fun between stop and shop, ( Read more... )