have you ever had an instance where you just wished you didn't have a heart so you'd be robbed of the ability to care, to favor, to have an opinion, to feel pain etc. therefore it'd make everyday easier. you could get what you knew needed to be done, completed without guilt. i think it'd be great. sometimes my heart makes me feel like i have ( Read more... )

i have a full blown case of mono. i thought mono was just when your sleepy but no, its being so sleepy PLUS ... inflamed tonsils w/ puss on them (gross), swollen/puffy eyes, swollen spline and liver, nonstop nausea, bumpy rash all over your body, fever, extreme pressure in the ears, congestion, vomiting, weak body..etc. the only thing i haven't ( Read more... )

yesterday dale's cat had kittens. i need to go see them! i can only imagine how adorable they must be. jamie, lin, ryan and me all went to the mall yesterday. i love american eagle they have the best sales. if there are no sales its too expensive for me but..its good. i love their styles ( Read more... )

sucks for me. i really, really wanted to go see that les mis. musical at the school right now not just because it looks interesting and i like musicals but i was invited. i hate never being able to get rides. stupid people who can drive! ha. well, i suppose, if anyone's seen it, just let me know how it is....

i've been driven back into my little rut these past few days by people, events..mmhm. boy, i wish someone could bury it for GOOD! so i could never fall back into it. my prolonged thinking only digs me in deeper. i feel so unaccomplished. i feel like i'll never move; i'm at a standstill. it's not unbareable. i'm not going to whine and say i want to ( Read more... )

last night i went to the james taylor show with my ma, ry, and his mom. we had THE LAWN! heh. but it was cool. going back to the webster brought back so many memories of my boy band years w/ no authority. it made me sad! ha. i wanted to go back to being a pathetic little teenybopper w/ big unreachable dreams that made me happy. it was sad phase, ( Read more... )

we got back sat morning. hawaii was like no other place i'd ever seen. it'd be beautiful with flowers than suddenly cliffs and lava....there would we hotels, beaches, houses, condos....then volcanoes with no civilization, so weird ( Read more... )

in about a half hour susan, my ma's friend, is picking us up and we're heading to the airport. i guess tonight we're staying at the sheraton in the airport and leaving at 7 am to hawaii. i just got back from the nail place they took off my acyrlic nails, feels so nice. mmmmhm, for once boy nails feel good. ry will be happy. i wish i could drive on ( Read more... )

this past friday laura came and slept over my house. lin me and her made a huge whirl pool together, and broke the ladder. hah. saturday we had jame and linny's grad party. the bungee thing was real fun, but it hurt. whip lash, bruises, burns...mmhm. the water fight was fun, and later ducki, mike, clark, richa, lin, jame, laura and me went swimming ( Read more... )

this morning i heard my uncle leaving so i jumped up to unlock the back door for ry. because he said he'd be at my house at 9 and i didnt wanna wake up. yet he came to the front door anyway and woke up linny. buttface. ha. but it was a good morning. just laying together all relaxed, and what not, knowing my ma wasn't going to come barging in ( Read more... )