not really...yesterday the 11th would have been nate and i's two year anniversary...im glad i didnt even realize it till a couple of hours ago. Cause it would have bummed me out all day. Thinking about how much different my life was this time last year...its so crazy. i hated this year...i want to go back to 2003 that was a damn good year.

why do i always find myself in awkward predicaments? I cant seem to grasp my judgement lately. I have made two mistakes in one month...who does that? the same fucking mistake. This last month has really made me think about how shitty i can be at times. Im over meeting, dating or assosciating with guys. Well for time being atleast. All i do is hang ( Read more... )

is it bad that i am most happy when i am sleeping? ah...where did my motivation go?

this has been one fucked up year.

Geri, collin and i went to san diego last night to see depeche mode...oh my fucking goodness...it was fucking insane, life changing even! THey were flawless, in every way. Our seats thanks to miss Geni were fucking amazing!!!! It made the whole experience surreal ( Read more... )

dear boy i saw at the club,

you were really cute..and no that boy i was with wasnt my boyfriend(an ex, however) but not boyfriend. Come talk to me...k thanks.

I went out with Nate and some friends. I saw a cute guy...thats a first at moscow for me. Too bad i am pretty sure he thought i was with nate....oh well.

I think i contradicted myself. I always said i would never regret anything. This weekend, i did something i do regret. THere was no lesson...just a bad judgement call. WHy you say? because deep down i knew i shouldn't or didnt want to...but i did it anyway..why? i have no fucking idea.Sure you might want to know what the hell i am talking about... ( Read more... )

Im pretty sure...the last two days...i have managed to hate...everything.

So i am super into being single...pretty much for the first time in my life...i am ok with being alone. I went on a date the other night...it wasnt bad. I actually had a good time. But for some reason i dont really want to date anyone. Sure i want to meet people and what not...but i am not ready to give up my freedom...haha. I think i am turning ( Read more... )

LJ Interests meme results

1. bis:
   a really funny energetic band that reminds of the days when all dylan and i did was go to shows. and they are from scotland!
2. clinic:
   thanks to paul b..in ny...he introduced me to them when i was sad in sd and i needed some new music for my ears.
3. go sailor:
   go sailor will always remind me of my highschool days...my ( Read more... )