Fuck. I started my monthly vaginal bleeding today. It hurts so good. I love the feeling of sticky mucasy blood all over your fingers and your face. I wonder if anyone else feels like that. It makes me feel truly alive yet dead all at the same time. My father bought some new gardening shears earlier in the summer. I am thinking about castrating my ( Read more... )

So I have a brand fucking new computer now. I got pissed a little more than a month ago, and tried to smash my head in with the modem while I was high, then I used the glass ont he screen to cut. For some weird fucking reason, my parents thought it would make me feel better if they bought me a new one. Thats fine by me, niggers. No skin off my ( Read more... )

Fuckesha told me Im too needy so I shot at her, then cut her a little. I havent seen her since, but I know it wasn't lethal. She's a fucking bitch. I hope she died. I hope it was miserable. I hope she's crying herself to sleep. Forever. Right now.

I hate my life.

I tried to kill myself today. Fourteen times in the past ten minutes or so. Why the fuck can I not just fucking die already? It's the only thing on this god damned planet that I'm passionate about. Life-hating and suicide. Why, oh ufcking why, can't I die ( Read more... )

WHILE YOU'VE BEEN DRUNK, HAVE YOU EVER ( Read more... )

Spring fucking sucks. All this new birth and fucking colors and shit. I hate it so much. fucking colors make my eyes bleed. Or I wish they bled at least, so I could feel pain instead of lokoing at all these beautiful new beginnings and rebirths. Fuck it all ( Read more... )

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1. Do you still talk to the first person you kissed ( Read more... )

I fucking am grounded. Not that I care. My parents think that will stop me? So today I just left and went to get applications at places. I have a group interview at Panera tomrrow. The plan is I'll dress all nice and be nice (for Raina, at least) and then I'll spit in niggers food and poison bitches.Fucking sickass ( Read more... )

I cant sleep so I cut EVERYWHERE and Im not even light headed yet.. When will I pass out. Maybe Ill just OD on something and another.