But I feel the need to, for some reason. So here goes ( Read more... )

Far be it from me to attempt to diagnose my relationship issues, because I have a lot. There's got to be some underlying reason why things are the way they are, but I'd rather not even know. But I do know that I struggle with closure. Be it because I move on too fast (obviously) or some other reason, it's a problem that bothers me greatly ( Read more... )

I could say so many hurtful, hateful things right now. I am not thinking clearly, and I know that. But apparently I never am able to think clearly enough to form my thoughts into words and phrases that won't upset him. Every time I open my mouth, I say something wrong. I somehow become the world's most offensive person. And it upsets him that I say ( Read more... )

Everyone knows I get wedding and baby fever very easily. I'm highly susceptible. But lately, the more I watch those weddings shows I enjoy so much, the less I want my very own huge and personalized wedding. It seems like a fun idea, but if I think realistically, it makes me kind of sick. I definitely want to get married... but such a huge expense ( Read more... )

I never write anything that makes any sense. I am emotional and immature girl, at least from this journal ( Read more... )

Wariness should be my go-to emotion. I should never trust my gut reaction because, particularly when it comes to relationships, it's not right. Or at least it doesn't last. I should begin with zero trust, not let reality bring it there. I'm not saying I have a reason to not trust or a reason to change my feelings, but I've jumped into a place I can ( Read more... )

My summer feels like it has been a giant waste. I spent most of it having no clue what the future was to hold, all based on my own lack of action. I also spent way too much of it thinking about someone who turned out to be obscenely not worth my time. It looks like he's out of the picture for good, which may be one of the only truly positive ( Read more... )

As if it weren't stupidly obvious that I was rebounding, I'm beginning to feel the disappointment of a lack of fulfillment in my new relationship. Considering what I came from, I realize how stark the comparisons are to me as well as others. In my mind, the two are hardly similar at all. While the new relationship does not bear any of the terrible ( Read more... )

Why must I torture myself like this? It's over. "It's over, it's over, it's all coming apart." We know this. Nothing new. I've done a good job the past few weeks of distracting my mind, but then I give in and the thoughts and emotions flood in. There's nothing I can do, since self-control isn't my best option. I've never been good at staying away ( Read more... )

I have severe jealousy issues. Wow. I mean, it's no secret that I can be an attention hog. I appreciate attention quite a bit. And I've never really been able to hide my jealous tendencies, but it's starting to shock me how jealous I can be. Completely unwarranted, I always jump to the worst conclusions and take everything personally and out of ( Read more... )