It's refreshing to start something new at this particular point of insignificance in my life. I'm waiting for everything to either come together or fall apart, really. Everything is stagnant and I can't progress unless something happens, most of which being completely out of my control. That upsets me much more than I care to think about, so I don' ( Read more... )

It’s been over a week and I can’t get it out of my mind. As far as I know, he doesn’t even care. Certainly our relationship wasn’t really on the path to lasting forever, but the abrupt ending has left me confused. I think about him too much. Probably much more than the circumstances would call for, considering how cruel he was to me. I should be ( Read more... )

Each day I must mentally wrestle myself into not sending an unnecessary text message. I regret to predict that it will probably happen eventually. And I'm sure the outcome will be negative, no matter what it is ( Read more... )

I can't help but blame myself. I don't know how it got this bad. But really, there's nothing I could do. Everything was fine. I didn't do anything wrong. As much as I hate admitting when I've done any wrong, I truly did nothing to deserve how he treated me ( Read more... )

This is supposed to be some of the best, most free years of one's life. All I can think about now is how I want to speed up time and get away from all of this, everything that's happening now. I don't want to be in this time of my life. I don't want to have to struggle to find a job and to find my place in the world. I just want a career and a ( Read more... )

Here and I thought things would have changed. Or stayed the same. I'm not really sure which is which anymore.
I thought he cared about me and that our friendship meant something. But I guess he can't overcome his selfishness in order to be mature with me. I was looking forward to seeing him, being with him as a friend, feeling that connection that ( Read more... )

Anxiety has completely shut down my mind, not to mention my body. For some reason, I have become overcome with anxious thought. I can feel my chest becoming red and blotchy, as it always does in this situation. I cannot breathe regularly; I feel like I can't get enough air. I want to throw up, but there's nothing to throw up. I need to sleep, but I ( Read more... )

I don't think my reactions or emotional response makes much sense right now. Shouldn't I be (or have been) more upset about this? I just spent 8 months of my life with someone, and it completely fell apart. There's nothing I could have done to fix it. Is that what's making it easier? Is it that I knew that it was over for a while what is helping me ( Read more... )

So, it's finally over. I think we both saw it coming, we were deluding ourselves. I suppose I can only truly speak for myself, but I think we needed each other so much that we were willing to put up with things we shouldn't have in order to have someone. I never understood how it worked or why we were ever good together. It was confusing and he was ( Read more... )

Whenever I watch Tool Academy (I know, I know...) I can't help but think about how pathetic it all is. More than the guys being fairly pathetic people, it's the girlfriends that really upset me. They just are being strung along by complete losers. The guys for the most part obviously don't really want to be with the women, and just don't want to ( Read more... )