Waiting is certainly not my forte. I'm impatient, and I'm a planner. I always like to know what's going on. I need details to ease my anxiety-prone mind. I'm getting zero right now. This is just incredibly hard, not know what's going on. I don't know if he's freezing me out for a set period of time, or just never speaking to me again, or what. I ( Read more... )

Well, it happened. He finally left me, after threatening to do it so many times. I feel completely broken. I don't want to move today. No appetite. Everything is wrong. I'm missing him so much already. It's not fair how he would do it to me like this. Just leave. He's suffered from lack of closure before, and it hurts that he wants to leave it like ( Read more... )

Never have I ever... been the clingy one in a relationship. Until now! Good God, what has happened to me? I used to be so cool and nonchalant about relationships. I remember specifically being on the other side of a clinger. He wanted much more of my time than I felt that I wanted or needed to give. I had much more going on in my life than he did, ( Read more... )

I am entirely too realistic about money. It depresses me every time I think about money, because it's a huge hindrance to absolutely everything I want to do. I'm not in the worst financial place of all time, but I just might be getting there. I would probably do just about anything for money right about now, and that completely sickens me. I need a ( Read more... )

I have 99 things to bitch about, but something relevant that actually freaking matters ain't one ( Read more... )

I am thankful for:

• My amazing boyfriend. We've already been through so much, and it's only been (almost) 5 months. I can't even believe we've made it this far. He needs me and I need him. He loves me and I love him. We're not perfect and our relationship definitely isn't, but we as a couple have changed so much. I am thankful for everything he does ( Read more... )

I obviously need more to think about. I need to find a way to focus on something productive, intelligent, worthwhile. I think I'm so stressed, but I obviously need more. I need more to pile on top of my head so that I can stop constantly worrying about my boyfriend and my relationship ( Read more... )

Well, since I won't really be able to fall asleep until I get this out anyway ( Read more... )

There is no better word to describe how I feel than "lost". I have no idea what I'm doing or where I'm going. It's as if I'm moving in a fog. I'm fairly certain that there is forward motion, but I can't tell where I'm headed or how long it will take to get there. It defies the idea of progress at all. I change my mind nearly every day. I'm worried ( Read more... )

There seems to be no amount of catharsis that can calm me these days. Absolutely nothing is helping. And by "nothing", I mean freaking out by myself and really getting nothing accomplished. Every single day seems to present another stumbling block for me, however small ( Read more... )