this whole life of mine has been gay this week. i feel trapped. i feel just like somebody has backed me into a corner and all i know how to do is cry. i cant get it through my little brain that travis will never change. and amanda will always be on his mind, good or bad. i know whats right. i know what i should do, for some reason i never do it ( Read more... )

fuck this journal im destroying it...bad memories is all it is.

today is weird, i feel weird about everything. i think shit would be more appropriate than weird. i am getting this bad feeling about him. its baaad. i want to just walk away. its weird that i have this feeling bc everything is going so good. but to be honest. i feel trapped. i still dont understand if you love somebody how you can hurt them. i ( Read more... )

well i have been unusally happy latley :) miss happiness...thats me. anyways i guess im content. me and travis still speak, we still love eachother. ill always love him. i think he could murder me and id forgive him. ive come to realize were just at differnent points in our lives, and even though it didnt work out with him its not the end of the ( Read more... )

i am soooo bored geeez. just sitting here by myself in my room waiting on my grandparents to get back from the beach. i cleaned my room i was so bored. anyways last nite i was supposed to go hang out with "somebody" but i fell asleep. like flat out layed down after i got out of the shower and was out. so i hope hes not mad at me :/ lol. i just ( Read more... )

well today was good u suppose. lol me and emily saw a "big turd" hahahha anyways that was funny and then we went to like 4 banks, and then we got some alcohol woo and ate at ocharleys and i got aaron some dindin, took that to him and he gave me like 18 hugs and kisses! Those brown eyes...i mean damn.... me and emily are headin out to candla town ( Read more... )

Well thank God tomorrow is friday. I am going to be here all by myself until sunday :( i get scared at nite. anyways tomorrow Emily is commin over and were gonna go have ourselves a party nite woohoo! i cant wait. fun fun fun yay. i guess ima go to bed now, since i am bored and my computer doesnt want to play my dvd :/

Well, a few things happened this past week that i thought would devastate me. put me through hell. whatever u wanna call it. buuut, actually its been for the better. cause now i realize travis isnt everything. hes not even close. hes merely a person who thinks he can hurt everyone. well travis. i have news for you. i dont like you. your a cruel ( Read more... )

buck tooth frizz head...bitch.

well today i made up for all that no crying last night. i cryed all day. and some of the night. its time for me to get my shit together and either get over him or tell him to fuck off and have a good booty call life with buck tooth frizz head.