last night was the first night i didnt cry myself to sleep.

today was just another sad day for me without travis.

Today i feel very unsure of myself, and very unsure of my feelings and my everything.

I love to hate everything. thats why im going back to the psychiatrist.

She fills my bed with gasoline ( Read more... )

well today was pretty good. last night me and brandy went to travis house and watched a movie with him and jason. me and travis had some alone time and stuff, it was really relaxing and peacefull. i just layed on his chest for like 5 min. i havent been that relaxed in awhile. i wish he would do that every time we hang out. just for 5 min. anyways ( Read more... )

i feel so bad today. i want to scream. i want to cry. i want to cry till i cant breath anymore. but i cant, i feel numb to everything, i feel numb to my feelings. some days i feel so good its crazy and then twenty minutes later my whole world comes crashing down it seems. everything went wrong that could this weekend. travis gave me a sterling ( Read more... )

well life has been pretty good latley :) i just got a new job and its fun, me and travis have been getting along better and we love eachother, we really love eachother. and its almost christmas yay! i been doing my christmas shopping i got travis a camcorder he wanted and some clothes and stuff and something else i hope he wont make fun of but i ( Read more... )

travis if ur reading this i love you. i feel so bad about going on this date tomorrow. i understand that if i go u wont speak to me again or so u say. but i know u will u love me. this is just something that i need to do. i love you with all my heart right now. and i would give anything to sleep next to you tonight and have u hold me. i need to get ( Read more... )

Looking back at all these old journal entrys makes me really sad.

When two people love eachother but just cant seem to get it together when do you say enough is enough?