I've had a few messages from people offline who read this asking me why I never post about anything other than my pregnancy. Mainly, it's because whenever I'm on Livejournal it's because I'm so exhausted and I'm trying to relax so when I do post it's really for myself to document my pregnancy. It comes in useful when I forget dates or what tests I ( Read more... )

I'm in labor. Well..sort of. I went into the hospital yesterday for a check up and an ultrasound as a result of the adventure to the hospital a couple of days ago and the midwife confirmed the cramping, pressure and lethargy is labor. I could be like this for days, I could be like this for weeks so I came back to the flat this morning to see how ( Read more... )

I went into the hospital last night for decreased fetal movements and pain. It seems like my BH contractions are coming every 10-15 minutes on the monitor and baby is doing fine in there and after a speculum being inserted again the midwives have decided I'm probably in early labor which could go on for days/weeks (I'm 2cm dilated and 50% effaced ( Read more... )

I've been having contractions all yesterday evening, all through the night and some sporadic this morning when they started to get uncomfortable and accompanied by lower back pain. Since about three hours ago they've stopped completely and although I'm still feeling rather crap the baby hasn't been moving as much as she usually is. I was concerned ( Read more... )

I turn up to the midwife today and lo and behold, the ex is there! He sat through my checks, seemed so happy to hear the heartbeat and wants to come next week to my next appointment. I'm beginning to raise hope ( Read more... )

I have officially become a hermit today. I haven't felt like doing anything but laying around reading, doing some light cooking (and heavy eating) and browsing the internet. I should really have done laundry, hoovered the living room and tidied my wardrobe but those did not feel like options to me. I woke up last night in intense pain so much so ( Read more... )

My emotions have been everywhere today. Not so much in that I'm crying but that I get so angry at the slightest thing. In Tesco this afternoon I got so heated up with my Grandma over the price of the brandy she wanted to buy (she wouldn't believe I had told her the right price and insisted on me walking halfway down the length of the store to find ( Read more... )

Today I am officially ready to move in. The modem is here, all my bags are packed and ready to go, the TV and TV stand are here ready to be set up later on today so it looks like I'm going to be there tonight or tomorrow. I'm nervous about spending my first night there tonight so I may put it off until tomorrow if I don't feel comfortable after ( Read more... )

Yes, I am scared. I am absolutely fucking petrified of what's in front of me and what I'll be leaving behind. I'm scared that I won't be able to get adjusted to life alone and scared that I won't be a good mother, scared that something will happen to my family if I'm not around all the time and scared of not having enough money to pay the bills ( Read more... )

I've been sat here writing and thinking about everything and I've decided that I'm going to use this journal for a lot more than just writing about my pregnancy and flat because, after all, in around 8 weeks there will be nothing to write about and we'll be moving on to not the fetus inside of me but the actual baby living outside me. Once my baby ( Read more... )