Best way to stress myself out: stare at my major reqs for the next four years, and think about how important research and stuff like that will be.

So the raptor center had a zillion people at their informational meeting, and I found out today that I don't get to volunteer for spring quarter. I theoretically have a better chance of getting in if I ( Read more... )

It's like everything good in life decided to hit me within these past few days:

( I decided I'm the only one who cares. Click to read a massive wall of text if you wish. )

Classes:

Examined Life. I am not really sure if this class changed me in some deep profound way that I am not aware of. Or if it was just complete and utter bs. I am not really sure I learned anything from this class. It forced me to read Rousseau and Mill and Proust and Plato though, which was pretty interesting. I feel like it wasn't an utter ( Read more... )

Math midterm: 29/30.
Average: 17.23/30.

oheckyes!

Aced it even without a curve.

This makes up for my failure on the last midterm.

I might actually end up not failing math this quarter.
(and I beat chivalrous kid at math for once omgfgawd!).

I can't believe I'm so happy about math I'm making a post about this.
./dork

:]

Okay now back to more math hw that I ( Read more... )

If there are two things that "everyone else" seems to understand  that I don't, they are religion, and America.

On America:

It's kind of scary how impressionable children are, and how much less impressionable we become as we grow older. I wasn't even 9 when I came to the US. To be honest, I only have extremely scattered memories of Canada, and ( Read more... )

I register in about 3 hours.

So far my schedule is thus:

2 scriptwriting
5 chem 2b: 55954    
5 phys 9a: 75876
  phys lab: 75855
4 mat 21d: 69668
4 cmn 3: 57147 (hopefully during pass 2, because you can only sign up for 17 units max during pass 1)

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20 units. That is a freakishly big number.

Which means.

Goodbye concert band, that I stressed so hard to ( Read more... )

A few days ago, I ran into Tracy Chong in the DC, and just for the heck of it, sat with her group of friends instead of mine.

And they were all Asian. And though I pretty much hung out with an exclusively Asian group for the latter part of elementary school, and all of middle school and high school, it felt weird to be sitting with a table of all ( Read more... )

Day of midterms: 
D;

Week in between:
*incoherent mumbling*

After finding out chem midterm grade: 
(:

After finding out math midterm grade:
 D': D': D': !!!
It's kind of frightening how quickly events can make me lose faith in myself. And give up on everything.

And it's kind of weird how I know that when I wake up tomorrow, it'll be a new day, and I'll ( Read more... )

Well.

I told myself I wouldn't ditch badminton without a good reason.

But I did.

I told myself I wouldn't play awkward social games.

But I did. (And it's really pathetic how I instinctively hide behind shields like The Silent Treatment when I don't know how to react to things.)

ohshameshameshameshameshame.

... but I don't think I would be more disgusted ( Read more... )

I watched Yes Man with Sarana and Sherry over break. At first I thought it was a comedy whose only purpose was to make us laugh at the unfolding of some pretty ludicrously impossible events, but the more I think about life, the more I realize how truly applicable this movie is.

Because life is simply a sequence of ludicrously impossible events that ( Read more... )