Blah. I come to my livejournal when I don't know what else to do. For years now I haven't been able to write, to express on paper or screen the amount of feeling going through me at every second of the day. That inability to put thoughts into words has made me avoid writing. So years go by and nothing changes and I don't even remember what I've ( Read more... )

I've felt it for a long time but never as bad as this. I am aching so bad to just die already ( Read more... )

I feel like shit ( Read more... )

i feel very lost.
very.....dead. i can't explain in words how it is. im okay, i guess. i mean, im not crying 24/7. but i feel so dead inside. empty and crappy.

and i want the boredom to fucking end. im so tired of having nothign to do.

i wish i could close my eyes and disappear.

almost my birthday...weehooo.

wish i had more to say, but i dont.

here i go, after god knows how long ( Read more... )

imsuch ascrewup.
thereisntanotherwordfor this.,

ivelostmybestfriend
theonlyonewhoreallyknewme

theonlyonewhotrulycared.
imalone.
andlonely
andblah.

enteringasuperdepressivephaseandleftfeelinglostandaloneasalways.

blah.

its been a looooong time ( Read more... )

i dont know what the future hold for me ( Read more... )

SOAD SOAD SOAD ( Read more... )

BLAHHH!!!!!
Tagged by: miss_lindseyOnce you are tagged you MUST write an entry about 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next six people to be tagged and list their names ( Read more... )