When do you give up on someone? When does it become too much, when it also makes you depressed? Do I lose hope because each day gets worse? Or do I hold on to the tiny gripling bit of positive that happens that day? Do I continue to watch someone try to kill themselves right before my eyes? Someone I love and am supposed to spend the rest of my ( Read more... )

I'm tired. But I can't sleep my mind keeps going round and round in circles thinking about things. I wish my computer would do what it's supposed to for once in my life or I think I might throw it out the window then run over it with my car. I love food but rarely eat anymore. I had major surgery a week ago and it's something I never want to have ( Read more... )

So since it's been May since I've written a lot has gone on. I think anyones life can change in 6 months. Nothing extraordinary though. Just normal life processes. I celebrated my 21st birthday in August -- which was exhilirating. My friends truly made it the best and never forgetful kind of day. I did have quite a few drinks and I got a little ( Read more... )

So many times I really think I know what I want in life. But in realization I'm putting everything else before what I really, truly, honeslty want. I always think I'm getting closer to God and building a relationship with him, in reality I'm farther away than I was when I started going to church. I don't know how to build that relationship. ( Read more... )

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So its been since JULY since I've written. Which is a totally crazy thing because LJ used to be source of exsistence. It's funny how I've been out of highschool going on three years now. Which I still can't believe myself. Somedays I wish I could go back to highschool, where you don't have the whole world sitting on your shoulders and all you have ( Read more... )

wow. at this moment right now, my life is in a whirl wind down hill. i cant even begin to describe. i have so many unanswered questions. things about my future. god. everything. life doesnt suck, but its not the greatest. but i guess it could be worse. i really should update more often.

So I've been working my new job a little over a month and in that time period I've gotten to know a guy at work and we just decided this weekend we wanted to be more than friends. I'm very excited he's a great guy. I really think this could be the one; but then I thought I had found him previously. So I'll just see where things go and try not to ( Read more... )

I never thought life could be so great. I mean once again I'm writing about how everything has fallen into place. My life continues to strive with greatness. :]. I see a trainer three nights a week and I've already lost a ton of weight. It's pretty amazing what just a little bit of effort can do for you. I've talked with my recruiter and I'll be ( Read more... )

I've contemplated my life a lot here lately. Is it where I want it to be? No. Is it where it should be with God's plan; sure. Or so I believe. I finally feel as if my life is falling into place and I can now see that obstacles were set in front of me to overcome before I could achieve the dream in my life. And they were put there for a reason; they ( Read more... )